Introspection on my faith and purpose, and other random thoughts
I have always envied people with great faith and conviction. People who can not only accept a higher power, but also completely immerse themselves in religion and faith. I am not one of them. I think most religion is a scam. However, growing up in a close church group, and then seeing my parents as devote southern baptists, I feel guilty that I don't live my life in the traditional christian sense. I have a deeply routed faith, but I don't agree with a lot that my parent's preacher says. I am definitely not a hellfire and brimstone kind of person. Nor to I think that it is my life's mission to force my beliefs on other people. I think that faith and spirituality are personal, and that each person must find God their own way.
I was greatly moved by a book I recently read, Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. The book talks about her struggle to find happiness and meaning in her life, while discovering her own spirituality and finding balance. I find the practice of yoga and meditation appealing, because I feel that the closeness one can feel to God is amplified by the meditation process. I think that it shows dedication and a willingness to listen. I struggle with the concept of really listening. I always seem to have something to say, and I envy those who are able to keep quite and observe the world.
I have started a new book to aid in my need for personal growth, Living a purpose-full Life by Jan Johnson. I think that everyone has a purpose in life, but most of us don't take the time to seek it out. We are all so busy with the present conficts and stresses of our lives that we barely have time to even enjoy life much less find meaning in it. However, it is a very subconscious motivator for many women. We take jobs that we are good at or think we enjoy, but end up leaving jobs because we don't feel like what we do means anything or matters to the greater good. As the book says, "Better jobs and more respect haven't brought us what we want. Instead, we have discovered that materialism breeds discontent, trying to be superwomen breeds fragmentation, and working in a office staffed by people with large egos breeds disillusionment." And I have to say I completely agree. Looking back at my time at Covance, I can see all of these aspects in how I use to feel. I think getting sacked from that job was the best thing that ever happened to me. It was my wake-up call that I am worth so much more than corporate america thinks I am!
I am now on a mission to find out what is important to me, to be happy with where I am in life, and to make a difference in this world.
I was greatly moved by a book I recently read, Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. The book talks about her struggle to find happiness and meaning in her life, while discovering her own spirituality and finding balance. I find the practice of yoga and meditation appealing, because I feel that the closeness one can feel to God is amplified by the meditation process. I think that it shows dedication and a willingness to listen. I struggle with the concept of really listening. I always seem to have something to say, and I envy those who are able to keep quite and observe the world.
I have started a new book to aid in my need for personal growth, Living a purpose-full Life by Jan Johnson. I think that everyone has a purpose in life, but most of us don't take the time to seek it out. We are all so busy with the present conficts and stresses of our lives that we barely have time to even enjoy life much less find meaning in it. However, it is a very subconscious motivator for many women. We take jobs that we are good at or think we enjoy, but end up leaving jobs because we don't feel like what we do means anything or matters to the greater good. As the book says, "Better jobs and more respect haven't brought us what we want. Instead, we have discovered that materialism breeds discontent, trying to be superwomen breeds fragmentation, and working in a office staffed by people with large egos breeds disillusionment." And I have to say I completely agree. Looking back at my time at Covance, I can see all of these aspects in how I use to feel. I think getting sacked from that job was the best thing that ever happened to me. It was my wake-up call that I am worth so much more than corporate america thinks I am!
I am now on a mission to find out what is important to me, to be happy with where I am in life, and to make a difference in this world.