WOW! Just WOW!
Ok.. I thought long and hard about not responding to such things... but I can't.. it is not in my nature. So here we go.
I read your journal yes... because despite that people in my past may no longer care about me... does not mean I don't care about them. You are in my old friends' lives and therefore are a point of interest for finding out how everyone is. I don't talk to these people because they would prefer I didn't and to respect their wishes I merely read these online accounts of what is going on in their life.
This also explains why I was nice to you in the past. To be friendly... not a friend and show those I cared for and care about still that I will do anything in order to show them that I can be in their life regardless of how distasteful the tasks to be there might be to my own person.
I find it more than mildly amusing that you care enough to slander me on the internet... but that does not really concern me. I am not apart of the group of people that you concern yourself with save Mike's father who I still talk to on a fairly regular basis. Whether you know it or not. And no... it never concerns you or Mike save a quick, "So how is everyone doing?" We talk about life (his and mine) and that is the extent.
I am not the person you think I am, but if that makes life more enjoyable for you... hating someone who you never knew to begin with. That is fine. Again you are not a part of my life. The only opinions that matter to me are my friends: Shayna, Ben, Sidney, Josh, Eleni, Tim, Mark, Jason, Skip, Greg, Mel, Jake and Eric. They are my love and my light and we are the best family any one could ask for. They know me and love me for every flaw and beauty and I them.
As for me being an angel... I never claimed to be such. I have made horrible mistakes in my life that I have and will always pay for. (Including your slander) And I accept that. Everyone will go through this in life... and I am certainly no acception. We pay for our mistakes in one way or another. Don't worry ... I will get mine.
And I am sure you hate this... but unlike you seem to be most of the time I am happy. I have a great job, great friends, and wonderful peace of mind. I like myself. I have come a along way to get here and no one, especially not you is going to make me think otherwise. Also, it is not a matter of being God's gift. I don't believe in God. In fact.. I feel bad for those who crossed my path when I was a younger more selfish person. And I am sorry to those I have hurt, but I can't dwell on my mistakes, only learn from them and move on. I have moved on, and I hope this is the last time I will ever have to write anything like this. It is foolish and means literally nothing in the grand scheme of things. I am tire dof defending myself to those who are blind to the reality of the present. And it is not worth any one's time. I know who I am... my friends know who I am. That is enough. So this is finsihed now.
Have a long happy life far away from me. I wish you the best and hope that hatred is eventually replaced in your heart by understanding of others (not like or love or even agreence.. just understanding)
I read your journal yes... because despite that people in my past may no longer care about me... does not mean I don't care about them. You are in my old friends' lives and therefore are a point of interest for finding out how everyone is. I don't talk to these people because they would prefer I didn't and to respect their wishes I merely read these online accounts of what is going on in their life.
This also explains why I was nice to you in the past. To be friendly... not a friend and show those I cared for and care about still that I will do anything in order to show them that I can be in their life regardless of how distasteful the tasks to be there might be to my own person.
I find it more than mildly amusing that you care enough to slander me on the internet... but that does not really concern me. I am not apart of the group of people that you concern yourself with save Mike's father who I still talk to on a fairly regular basis. Whether you know it or not. And no... it never concerns you or Mike save a quick, "So how is everyone doing?" We talk about life (his and mine) and that is the extent.
I am not the person you think I am, but if that makes life more enjoyable for you... hating someone who you never knew to begin with. That is fine. Again you are not a part of my life. The only opinions that matter to me are my friends: Shayna, Ben, Sidney, Josh, Eleni, Tim, Mark, Jason, Skip, Greg, Mel, Jake and Eric. They are my love and my light and we are the best family any one could ask for. They know me and love me for every flaw and beauty and I them.
As for me being an angel... I never claimed to be such. I have made horrible mistakes in my life that I have and will always pay for. (Including your slander) And I accept that. Everyone will go through this in life... and I am certainly no acception. We pay for our mistakes in one way or another. Don't worry ... I will get mine.
And I am sure you hate this... but unlike you seem to be most of the time I am happy. I have a great job, great friends, and wonderful peace of mind. I like myself. I have come a along way to get here and no one, especially not you is going to make me think otherwise. Also, it is not a matter of being God's gift. I don't believe in God. In fact.. I feel bad for those who crossed my path when I was a younger more selfish person. And I am sorry to those I have hurt, but I can't dwell on my mistakes, only learn from them and move on. I have moved on, and I hope this is the last time I will ever have to write anything like this. It is foolish and means literally nothing in the grand scheme of things. I am tire dof defending myself to those who are blind to the reality of the present. And it is not worth any one's time. I know who I am... my friends know who I am. That is enough. So this is finsihed now.
Have a long happy life far away from me. I wish you the best and hope that hatred is eventually replaced in your heart by understanding of others (not like or love or even agreence.. just understanding)