damn.
So basically i was just talking to my aunt online and i found out threw her that my grandfathers twin brother killed himself 2 weeks ago.he did it b/c it was my grandfathers 5th i think, anniversary of him commiting suicide. so wouldnt you think that i would hear this from my father? nope...since i dont like him at all, he thinks it is justifible to not tell me b/c i dont talk to him....the only one i dont like is him...that doesnt give him the right to ignore the fact that i dont know about my great uncle....i was going to visit him next year when i got the money...he lived in seattle....i dont know what to do with myself...part of me wants to rip his throat out with a dull blade, the other part of me wants to run to seattle and go see my uncles grave...and pray a thousand times to god about why........WHY? the world doesnt make sense to me anymore.