I WANT IT ALL... I WANT IT ALL I WANT IT ALL I WANT IT ALL.
Oh hey August.
I'm antsy. Why do I always find motivation at midnight?
Bostonmed is an amazing show. I can't wait.
I don't know what to say about thus summer. I'm supposed to be giving a message on Monday in front of a few hundred people on the management experience. I will sell anybody on the face that it has been amazing and definitely a summer for the books. but right now all I want to do is sleep. and be 20 years old.
having said that, I'm also over 20 year old shit. After talking to someone a week or two ago, I realized that I no longer care about bullshit that does not matter. My issues are more pressing and more concerning than others' issues. Does this make me arrogant? probably. I'm kind of afraid that I'm not going to have friends this year simply because I don't really care. I feel like going to school and immersing myself in boy drama and friend drama and class drama is like a reverse in my intelligence level. After all I've gone through this summer, are you kidding me? well, I'm a tool. but I run a damn business and I can't legally order a beer. Sometimes I walk out of my office at night and it actually surprises me, like I have to actually remind myself, just how old I am. I've tricked myself into believing I'm 4 or 5 years older than I am. I can't tell if that is good or bad.
Josh moved out tonight.
I can't wait to be at Strom again. Every day. I have my schedule planned out already. I'm so stupid for not caring more about that this summer. Obviously working out was not going to happen in a 90 hour work week, but eating healthy... that's where I dropped the ball. Oh well, just another obstacle that I will get over.
I have a kind of crush. It's totally worthless, it won't go anywhere, EVEN IF the stars lined up and everything went perfectly, it's still stupid to pretend or try. But my God when the boy smiles... I don't even care. But this summer is not really for relationships so its all good.
I have a busy day tomorrow... trying to run without an asthma attack, reading, tanning, maybe going out with Anna on the boat... regrouping once and for all before I bust my ass to get to Ireland. I'm glad I have at least once person on this island I can relate to and help and motivate. Its like this whole summer has been worth it just for one person to give two shits. I know I'm not developing that the right way or the most professional way, but I'm a human and everybody needs intellectual interaction.
I would like to drive the shit out of an SC3 next week. Personally selling 5K, matching Anna, and watching other reps actually sell some freaking knives. It's kind of ludicrous what we do. It's actually asinine. WE SELL KNIVES. how weird is that? But I'm 20 years old and I've impacted countless people in some weird way.
I'm antsy. Why do I always find motivation at midnight?
Bostonmed is an amazing show. I can't wait.
I don't know what to say about thus summer. I'm supposed to be giving a message on Monday in front of a few hundred people on the management experience. I will sell anybody on the face that it has been amazing and definitely a summer for the books. but right now all I want to do is sleep. and be 20 years old.
having said that, I'm also over 20 year old shit. After talking to someone a week or two ago, I realized that I no longer care about bullshit that does not matter. My issues are more pressing and more concerning than others' issues. Does this make me arrogant? probably. I'm kind of afraid that I'm not going to have friends this year simply because I don't really care. I feel like going to school and immersing myself in boy drama and friend drama and class drama is like a reverse in my intelligence level. After all I've gone through this summer, are you kidding me? well, I'm a tool. but I run a damn business and I can't legally order a beer. Sometimes I walk out of my office at night and it actually surprises me, like I have to actually remind myself, just how old I am. I've tricked myself into believing I'm 4 or 5 years older than I am. I can't tell if that is good or bad.
Josh moved out tonight.
I can't wait to be at Strom again. Every day. I have my schedule planned out already. I'm so stupid for not caring more about that this summer. Obviously working out was not going to happen in a 90 hour work week, but eating healthy... that's where I dropped the ball. Oh well, just another obstacle that I will get over.
I have a kind of crush. It's totally worthless, it won't go anywhere, EVEN IF the stars lined up and everything went perfectly, it's still stupid to pretend or try. But my God when the boy smiles... I don't even care. But this summer is not really for relationships so its all good.
I have a busy day tomorrow... trying to run without an asthma attack, reading, tanning, maybe going out with Anna on the boat... regrouping once and for all before I bust my ass to get to Ireland. I'm glad I have at least once person on this island I can relate to and help and motivate. Its like this whole summer has been worth it just for one person to give two shits. I know I'm not developing that the right way or the most professional way, but I'm a human and everybody needs intellectual interaction.
I would like to drive the shit out of an SC3 next week. Personally selling 5K, matching Anna, and watching other reps actually sell some freaking knives. It's kind of ludicrous what we do. It's actually asinine. WE SELL KNIVES. how weird is that? But I'm 20 years old and I've impacted countless people in some weird way.