I stall before I start
Well the past week of my life sure has been shittastic i havent felt like this in sometime now i havent let someone get to me like this in a long time i cant remember the last time i lost sleep over someone lost my appetite over someone cared and thought about someone this much thinking about someone from the second i first wake up and contemplate not leaving my bed to the second i fall asleep ive been going to parties and surrounding my self with friends as much as possible but i just want to go home i am not sure why i care so much not sure how something that only lasted a few weeks can really hit me this hard im surrounded by people giving me advice on it which i appreciate the only thing i want to hear is that it will be okay she will come back and life will go back to how it was a week ago i hate this feeling this feeling in the pit of my stomach this constant overthinking this constant apathy and lethargicness that seems to be following me around like a dark cloud i felt like i was in a movie when i went foodshopping and every thing i saw reminded me of her i havent had a post llike this since i was in high school im forcing my self to get over it to cut this shit out i thought i was passed this and this sillyness i guess i am not. In other news i am seeing liz sadcowski on thursday it will be my first time seeing her on purpose since 2006 it is funny how life works out sometimes