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I just finished shoveling the driveway. It has been way to long since I have been in snow, but we have gotten half a foot in the last couple of hours. It may defy logic but I have always loved shoveling snow. I'm in Utah, I got here Tuesday at 7 in the morning after driving for 11 hours from LA. Long road trips are another thing that I just don't get enough of, something about having hours to just think is relaxing. I intended to post upon arriving but the drive and not having slept for a day and a half made that a dream. I don't really post anymore and I don't think that there are many people that even still look at lj but thats definetly appealing over facebook where there are plenty of semi associated friends that can read anything. So here goes,
This quarter pretty much sucked for me. Not really suprising I guess, I really don't have much in the way of purpose at school these days, I'm 23 and not done with undergraduate and even if I were I would still have no clue about what I wanted to do with my life, I work at a dead end low pay job that blurs into a tedium of pointlessness, I lost my best friend to spite, anger, and pride, and the only thing I look foreward to is summer in some 6 months. It's frustrating because I have had goals and purpose before. I think we all intuitively know in life when the choices we are making aren't the best, but sometimes it is so damn hard to actually figure out what the right choices are. It's been awhile since I posted a whiney emo rant but hell if I can't act like I'm 16 again occasionally whats the purpose of being older.
This quarter pretty much sucked for me. Not really suprising I guess, I really don't have much in the way of purpose at school these days, I'm 23 and not done with undergraduate and even if I were I would still have no clue about what I wanted to do with my life, I work at a dead end low pay job that blurs into a tedium of pointlessness, I lost my best friend to spite, anger, and pride, and the only thing I look foreward to is summer in some 6 months. It's frustrating because I have had goals and purpose before. I think we all intuitively know in life when the choices we are making aren't the best, but sometimes it is so damn hard to actually figure out what the right choices are. It's been awhile since I posted a whiney emo rant but hell if I can't act like I'm 16 again occasionally whats the purpose of being older.