*sigh*
I'm not sure if anyone has noticed at all... i usually don't try to lay my problems on my friends because the simple fact that i am not blind and i see the hardships and struggles that everyone else goes through. I've finally let my gate of emotions control me and i do not like the feeling. I shall explain.
I don't think it is news to anyone, unless you really try to ignore the hell out of me, that i do in fact like Nyla a lot. There hasn't been a single night i havn't thought about her. I barely talk to her and it has come to the point that i am really depressed about the subject. I have withdrawn most of my feelings for anything else. I think that my friendship with others is struggling because i can't just stop and analyse the situation.
I was home on Sunday just really contemplating what i was going to do about the whole situation. I started thinking about Nyla again, to my dismay it took up most of my thought process and just kinda layed on my bed, thinking. I started listening to some music and an idea popped into my head. I decided that since i can't really express my feelings to someone in such crappy crap mood, that i would make her a cd with songs that expressed my feelings for her. I have since listened to the cd almost 30 times... making sure it is appropriate to give to her, i even had my sister listen to it... she said it was cute, that made me smile.
Along with the CD i was going to writed Nyla a letter, i have failed about 4 or 5 times to write just a simple letter. I end up hating what i am trying to say... and just throw it away. I am still listening to the CD... and i will try my best to write her the letter THIS VERY NIGHT! I need some rest and inspiration from deep within myself.
I am sorry if i seem withdrawn or not very talk-a-tive... maybe you havn't even noticed anything wrong with me. I try my best to cheer up people around me when they are down... but as of now... i need support from my friends.
Thanks for just being there, even if you are unaware.
-Dan-
I don't think it is news to anyone, unless you really try to ignore the hell out of me, that i do in fact like Nyla a lot. There hasn't been a single night i havn't thought about her. I barely talk to her and it has come to the point that i am really depressed about the subject. I have withdrawn most of my feelings for anything else. I think that my friendship with others is struggling because i can't just stop and analyse the situation.
I was home on Sunday just really contemplating what i was going to do about the whole situation. I started thinking about Nyla again, to my dismay it took up most of my thought process and just kinda layed on my bed, thinking. I started listening to some music and an idea popped into my head. I decided that since i can't really express my feelings to someone in such crappy crap mood, that i would make her a cd with songs that expressed my feelings for her. I have since listened to the cd almost 30 times... making sure it is appropriate to give to her, i even had my sister listen to it... she said it was cute, that made me smile.
Along with the CD i was going to writed Nyla a letter, i have failed about 4 or 5 times to write just a simple letter. I end up hating what i am trying to say... and just throw it away. I am still listening to the CD... and i will try my best to write her the letter THIS VERY NIGHT! I need some rest and inspiration from deep within myself.
I am sorry if i seem withdrawn or not very talk-a-tive... maybe you havn't even noticed anything wrong with me. I try my best to cheer up people around me when they are down... but as of now... i need support from my friends.
Thanks for just being there, even if you are unaware.
-Dan-