May 20, 2004 19:48
yeah so alot has been on my mind.. like stupid shit . been going to the park alot at like 1 in the morning just thinking and watching the planes take off and shit . ahhhhhhhh stop thinking so damn much it gets me no where ... it doesnt matter what im thinking anyways. i always keep it to myself too . why dont i let these people know what im thinking . it probably wont do any good . it will either ruin friendships that are great, or maybe make them better, i want more than a friendship . thats the way i want it . but chances are highly unlikely .im just gunna stop everything , nothing is gunna matter to me anymore , it shouldnt anyways, just pain and suffering on my end of the stick so why bother .
imagine wanting someone so badly , wanting to be with them all the time , love to hear them laugh and talk and watch them smile ahhhh the feeling is incredible but then the wall of bricks come tumbling down when u know its impossible for u two to be with one another. they're just are not interested .....................
:crash: thats when i blow up inside
goat