quick update..
WoW!! Its been a long time.. i don't know where to even begin... I've been working at Sams Club for almost 2 months now.. in the OPTICAL Department... I fill peoples prescriptions on corective vision glasses and contacts.. hahaha... as far as I know I've been doing a really good job.. haven't had much time off lately but it's kinda worth it... I've been REALLY sick last week and I've been into work every day filling in for my manager because supposedly he wasn't feeling to well.. pfffff!!! fucking bastard.. but not much I could do about it. and it's not like I don't need the money... I moved out of my parents place finally!!!!!!!! I've been out for 3 weeks now, and I've just barely ordered internet today.. it's just so frustrating knowing you can't afford it... I have a $5500 car loan to worry about for the next 2 and a half years, well, $215 per month to be exact.. over $200 for car insurance... I have to fill my gas tank every 3 or 4 days because my work is 20 mills away. kinda like everything else that I need to, which sucks cock considering gas prices today.. and then $520 for rent plus electricity, food, drugs, and other bullshit... I just payed $90 up front today because I have no credit history for COX Communications to come install my phone line and intenet on friday... and another $60 for the box when they bring it for installation, pluse othe activation fees and other bullshit like that.. and to top all that off.. Jeff is here!!! I made him finally move down here YeY!! things are well between us.. but I always end up blowing a lot of $$ on him.. and we don't really have as much sex as I'd like... he claims it's because he doesn't want this to turn into a sex based relationship.. but I mean seriously.. it's like a rare occasion thing.. it makes my kinda depressed sometimes.. he's like cold to any kind of affection.. and has no idea how to be affectionet in any way.. it really just makes so sad sometimes where I wanna cry.. sigh... I just can't ever win I guess... and I guess I'll just always feel lonely... Well.. I'll update more when I get my own internet service hopefully next week.. I'm over at my parents now using my bros computer and their not home.. so I should prolly get out there and see what my babe is doing so we can get out of here..