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Today went pretty well. We talked some more and I think everything is much clearer. I'm hoping we can be civil about all of this. I feel like a major dick, but at the same time...I know it's for the best. I've done my share of crying over this...and it's probably not the end of the tears. 3 years is a long time. And when you've been with someone that long it's kind of hard to know how to go on and just be yourself without being with them. It's awkward. Does that make sense? The room seems so empty too. I can't shake the weird feeling looking at it. It's just...blank.
I'm going to cherish the good times...they're certaintly worth remembering. And I have learned so much from this. I've got a lot of growing up left to do, I just didn't realize it. For those who were concerned and posted in my LJ, things will be ok with time. Neither of us is going to be able to get over it overnight. I appreciate your friendship, and your concern.
I hope with time Lauren and I will be able to build a friendship. I don't want to not have her in my life. I know it won't be easy, but we're still living together and we have to do what we can to make that work.
On another note, I'm really glad that I have people I can talk to. Everyone that's been there for me, it has meant a great deal.
That is about all I have words for right now.
I'm going to cherish the good times...they're certaintly worth remembering. And I have learned so much from this. I've got a lot of growing up left to do, I just didn't realize it. For those who were concerned and posted in my LJ, things will be ok with time. Neither of us is going to be able to get over it overnight. I appreciate your friendship, and your concern.
I hope with time Lauren and I will be able to build a friendship. I don't want to not have her in my life. I know it won't be easy, but we're still living together and we have to do what we can to make that work.
On another note, I'm really glad that I have people I can talk to. Everyone that's been there for me, it has meant a great deal.
That is about all I have words for right now.