Avoidance
Why livejournal, I have managed to avoid your temptations for the last 18 months. Why you ask? Because I was happy, of course! I don't know what I want to write here, so I'm just going to sad-ramble.
I'm sad because I miss someone, and the things that person meant to me. I don't know if I was getting ahead of myself, but I was (for the first time in a long time) starting to think longer than what was going to happen next week, or next month. I have all these ideas. Or had all these ideas. I was taking my time putting any of them into action, to be fair. Taking someone else's priorities into account didn't help either. Especially getting them wrong from time to time. For the first time in a long time I saw a future, and it wasn't a future by myself, watching and waiting as my friends slowly paired, drifted away, absorbed in the goings on of their own lives. And now I'm back to thinking about what might've been, and hoping that I'll meet someone that I can see the future with again.
Or that history will repeat one more time, if the planets align...
I'm sad because I miss someone, and the things that person meant to me. I don't know if I was getting ahead of myself, but I was (for the first time in a long time) starting to think longer than what was going to happen next week, or next month. I have all these ideas. Or had all these ideas. I was taking my time putting any of them into action, to be fair. Taking someone else's priorities into account didn't help either. Especially getting them wrong from time to time. For the first time in a long time I saw a future, and it wasn't a future by myself, watching and waiting as my friends slowly paired, drifted away, absorbed in the goings on of their own lives. And now I'm back to thinking about what might've been, and hoping that I'll meet someone that I can see the future with again.
Or that history will repeat one more time, if the planets align...