Stumbled and fell
Music to listen to:
Sudden Death in Carolina - Brand New
The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New
Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't - Brand New
Sic Transit Gloria... Glory Fades - Brand New
Jimmy - Tool
H - Tool
Push it - Tool
All Hail the New Flesh - Strapping Young Lad
Detox - Strapping Young Lad
Irresponsible Hate Anthem - Marilyn Manson
Tourniquet - Marilyn Manson
Hysteria - Muse
I'd Do Anything - SImple Plan (I hate myself for liking this song)
Song for a Mix Tape - The Ataris
San Dimas High School Football Rules - The Ataris
House on Fire - Arkarna
So Little Time - Arkarna
The Future's Overrated - Arkarna
Every You Every Me - Placebo
Special K - Placebo
Satellite - BT
The Kids Aren't Alright - The Offspring
Self Esteem - The Offspring
In The Rainy Season - Strapping Young Lad
In the End - Linkin Park
Failure by Design - Brand New
Logan to Government Central - Brand New
Seventy Times 7 - Brand New
If I was into more emo, this list would be longer. And if I could remember all the good metal that's kept me sane over the years...
Music not to listen to:
Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional (while I love the song, I can't do it at the moment)
Other things to do:
Watch Pain Compilation videos on YouTube (it really does wonders!)
Climb Rocks
Write meaningless LJ entries
Sometimes do some work. Occasionally.
Choose life
Go back to karate.
Things not to do:
Go insane.
Go driving.
Its days like these that I'm glad there's no way people can read minds. If my thoughts scare myself, what would other people make of them?
I need some way to slow my thoughts down, they're moving too fast for me to consciously follow, and my head fells like its going to fly apart at the seams. And you know, there are seams in your head. Really!
No one can help me if they don't know all the parts, but I don't want to tell anyone all the parts. As usual. Lock up my fears inside and pretend that it works. If no one can see me panic then I must be ok. I know I'll make it out of this, but when I do, I'm fairly sure I'll be making it out alone. About as far as you can get from what I want.
I can't go on like this for much longer.