So, I'm drunk, woo!
And everyone knows that when you're drunk, you get all confessional. Well, I don't need to get confessional, cos I do that sober, so everyone knows all. But I figured I'd sign in, and have a bash at the old keyboard, cos, well, why the hell not?
I'm somewhat over my emo streak, feeling a little more centered, and all that jazz. There was reasons, and there's still plenty of stuff I wrote there that's true to how I feel, just rarely admitted. i don't often like to display my feelings, so if you get a dose of feelings from me, feel blessed, its very unusual.
I had a great day today. I got to work not too long after I intended, I got everything done that I wanted and needed to, and I left work feeling happy about having been there. Its a rare thing. The only thing that would make it better would be having not missed seeing a certain someone. But that wasn't unexpected anyway, and there wasn't much to be done about it, really. i still would've like some hugs...
I'm feeling very much in a forgiving mood of late. I guess maybe I've acknowledged my own imperfection, and therefore recognise that I can't expect perfection in others too. There are some of my friends who I dearly love, and either through circumstance or happenstance I haven't been all that I should've been for them in recent times. Some of them have been in severe need, too, and I feel bad that I haven't done anything to help out. But I'm turning over a new leaf. I can be all that I expect from myself. Or something like that.
I never thought I could be so happy being unfulfilled. Maybe its because I feel there is potential in my life again. Maybe I'm just excited to be going on leave in 2 weeks time. Whatever, it feels good.
Bring it.
I'm somewhat over my emo streak, feeling a little more centered, and all that jazz. There was reasons, and there's still plenty of stuff I wrote there that's true to how I feel, just rarely admitted. i don't often like to display my feelings, so if you get a dose of feelings from me, feel blessed, its very unusual.
I had a great day today. I got to work not too long after I intended, I got everything done that I wanted and needed to, and I left work feeling happy about having been there. Its a rare thing. The only thing that would make it better would be having not missed seeing a certain someone. But that wasn't unexpected anyway, and there wasn't much to be done about it, really. i still would've like some hugs...
I'm feeling very much in a forgiving mood of late. I guess maybe I've acknowledged my own imperfection, and therefore recognise that I can't expect perfection in others too. There are some of my friends who I dearly love, and either through circumstance or happenstance I haven't been all that I should've been for them in recent times. Some of them have been in severe need, too, and I feel bad that I haven't done anything to help out. But I'm turning over a new leaf. I can be all that I expect from myself. Or something like that.
I never thought I could be so happy being unfulfilled. Maybe its because I feel there is potential in my life again. Maybe I'm just excited to be going on leave in 2 weeks time. Whatever, it feels good.
Bring it.