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i dread life. everyday i wake up, im stressed, cuz idk what excuse to use on him. and i think he only likes the idea of me. not my actual. but if he feels lucky to have me, then i should probably have mutual feelings, except i dont. and i just want this shit to be over with. i hope its not a weird mental block i have preventing this from going anywhere. i hope its just the wrong person. but i dont see anything going anywhere anytime soon at least. and i just dont know..... i think im losing interest. or maybe it was just a bad day, the weather was no help. idk... i always confuse myself and overanalyze shit. why cant i just find the most explicit answer?