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If I don't see Mark today before 9 PM, I'm just trashing it all. He's not worth it in the slightest. Well, he obviously still is or I'd be done now, but second chances are permissible. It's just the way I see it is I've made a few very poor decisions and I'm beginning to feel used. I should not have let him come inside me. My 2 future goals, which, might I add, have taken some careful consideration (I am not usually a goal-oriented individual and so I'm proud to say I've finally thought of 2 of them that I quite like) are to join the Peace Corps and have a child. The latter is a long term, ultra future goal, but it is still something I eventually want to do. HIV would quickly destroy both of these plans. It's probably a little silly to worry about it so much, but it's something one must be aware of. Anyway, in sum, he's got one night to show me he'd like to have something to do with me, or else I'm not going to be very available at later dates.