horns and dialating beat

[go_nomad]

life is really starting to even out. sean's worry is my worry, but he comes around to thinking everything will be alright every once in a while and i'm in agreement. sunday night i could not be consoled, however. at the close of my back to back doubles i was counting out cash upstairs and discovered a very apparent lacking-like all my cash tips. after a busy, long, trying, missing bartender and opening the place myself 12 hour shift. i kept trying to talk myself back into the old "its just money" idealism but after a day like that the only thing that can soothe your aching feet, back and ego is setting your eyes on a handfull of twenties and applying them to your soul like a cool poultice. i walked out that night with puffy eyes and breath reeking of free shots of powers. in the morning i told myself i wouldn't let a heartless theft knock me loose again and went out to the house where emily nannies to hold me some baby. while bathing him i wished and wished that i could be a ten month-old in a bathtub again or go swimming as soon as possible. we found a ten dollar bill on the sidewalk and decided the world was cutting us a break. while the streets were buying us a round nick called to tell me he'd found the missing cash! OH HAPPY DAY. mike asked later if it felt like getting money back or making money and i couldn't really tell, but shit felt good. sean procured a sweet couch on our way back from johnny brendas last night. i said i'd want to try to reupholster it before we brought it in the house and he was like "yeah, like staple some sheets on there." (reason # 7546765). today i swept and mopped the house. this has been quite the weird weekly habit for me, but it always feels real nice afterwards. on the way to my little cig stand i ran into meredith. this girl kept me under her waitress wing when i was a wide-eyed buss kid and took me to my first fugazi show when i was 16 and now we're neighbors! she just bought a fixer upper around here and is becoming quite the integral part of the anti-casino campaign - fine lady to have around. good times.
goals for the week:
-get all my paperwork for the community center done
-pass my special points driving test
-get another wedding outfit or find one in a friends closet
-see posiedon in IMAX