And then there was South Africa.

[go_ashley_go]

It is so hard to feel like things are just barely out of reach and completely out of my control. It is hard to feel in one moment that I wouldn't want things to be any different than they are and then a moment later to feel like things should be different entirely. How is it possible to feel so thankful, yet so dissatisfied? Content and regret? Confident, but terrified out of my mind? Things have never been more clearly confusing.

Lately I have been laughing through tears. But that's Truvy Jones's favorite emotion.

I can't stop watching this fly reeling around and dying on the floor of my room at the Blue Moon.

Blue Moon, I saw you standing alone!