Realization.
"I'm no stranger to pain, especially the pain of waking up in the morning and the pain of realization."
- Jason Jessee
Driving home on Sunday a lot of thoughts crossed my mind about the past 2 years. It's strange to think about how much has changed for me. I went through a lot and put up with a lot. I'm convinced that the state of self loathing I was in caused lapses in judgment but also helped me trim unnecessary bullshit from my life. It's bittersweet. I can't say that I'm sorry for anything I've done because I'm not. I just wish that some things didn't have to go down the way they did. Being in a fucked up mental state, I said and did shit I shouldn't have but again, I don't apologize. They were moments of weakness brought on by stress. I'm not trying to justify it, I'm just calling it as it was. Maybe one day, I'll look back and see some value in 2007 and it's effect on me as a person but for now I'm happy with my life. Truly happy. It feels good to be able to say that again.
I don't even know who or if anyone even reads this shit anymore but I needed to get this off my chest and it seemed like it was time to get some use out of this old relic of the internet's past.
- Jason Jessee
Driving home on Sunday a lot of thoughts crossed my mind about the past 2 years. It's strange to think about how much has changed for me. I went through a lot and put up with a lot. I'm convinced that the state of self loathing I was in caused lapses in judgment but also helped me trim unnecessary bullshit from my life. It's bittersweet. I can't say that I'm sorry for anything I've done because I'm not. I just wish that some things didn't have to go down the way they did. Being in a fucked up mental state, I said and did shit I shouldn't have but again, I don't apologize. They were moments of weakness brought on by stress. I'm not trying to justify it, I'm just calling it as it was. Maybe one day, I'll look back and see some value in 2007 and it's effect on me as a person but for now I'm happy with my life. Truly happy. It feels good to be able to say that again.
I don't even know who or if anyone even reads this shit anymore but I needed to get this off my chest and it seemed like it was time to get some use out of this old relic of the internet's past.