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well its been a while since ive had a meaningful update in this piece. Things keep on going back and forth, one day everything in my life is going awesome and the next everything just sucks. Right now everything seems so monotonous its always the same. I hafta deal with being surrounded by freshman who are all about as smart as a brick when combined together and their main goal at college seems to be a contest of who can puke the most, get the closest to dying from alcohol poisoning, and just i dunno be like everyone else i guess. But I think about it sometimes and it's like what is out here, what is here that i like. Sure I just got a new car, I'll be investing in the stock market soon and probably make a bit more money but who the fuck cares it doesnt change jack shit. I guess I'm not happy and i dont know why. Well i guess a little of it might be the fact that if i go more than 3 days without that fucking pill my body freaks out on me but then again thats nothing new there. I just want to be like alone for like a day without anyone.......i need to get out of here go to the beach or something i dont fucking care. I hate how my roommate dan thinks he knows everything, like he's above you or something i dont know i just try to ignore him but it fucking just gets to me sometimes. I have lots of work to do but i keep procrastinationg really bad. I was supposed to go surfing witht hat chick today but some girl at her work had a baby and she had to work today......i dunno that whole situation just confuses the hell out of me. I hate how my body needs that pill but physically do not.....i dont get like "cravings" for it, its not like that my physical body is in a sense addicted to it......i mean it serves a good purpose but i dont need it or want it anymore and like i cant just stop. whatever fuck off
fault and fracture
You were most beautiful as the damage and the trauma
Pounding hard with battered wings of destiny
You were my last great war
You were my heaven ablaze
Riddled with faults and fractures
And I spent my last of days burning my oldest of bridges
And I spent my last of nights killing the best of friends
In the company of thieves, liars, beggers and whores
I'll lay waiting, just waiting for my time to come
ps. you are pathetic
fault and fracture
You were most beautiful as the damage and the trauma
Pounding hard with battered wings of destiny
You were my last great war
You were my heaven ablaze
Riddled with faults and fractures
And I spent my last of days burning my oldest of bridges
And I spent my last of nights killing the best of friends
In the company of thieves, liars, beggers and whores
I'll lay waiting, just waiting for my time to come
ps. you are pathetic