ars longa, vita brevis
edit:// i wrote all this yesterday...
heh, im watching village of the damned. this movie so cheesey. anyway, im still sick, but not as sick as before. i left school early yesterday. i didnt get any sleep the night before, but i decided to go anyway and see how it went. by the beginning of 2nd hour i thought i was going to throw up, so i went to the nurse. my mom didnt answer the first time i called, but the second time i went to the nurse she answered. i ended up signing out and waiting for her to pick me up for like 40 minutes. i was kinda pissed, but whatever. i knew i should have driven myself to school. well, today i went to school because i feel waaaaaaaay better. i had to blow my nose like a billion times and now my nose is all red and raw. :(
so work last night was ok, i guess. i dont like crystal. shes one of the managers. shes bitchy sometimes. i didnt really want to go to work last night because i felt like shit, but i figured i might as well go so i wasnt another day behind in training. i wish i had gone to work on tuesday too, because now i have to work from 10 to whenever they let my off saturday and and then come back at 3 till most likely around 8. gaaay. its really not a lot of hours, but i dont want to work all day saturday. i havent worked longer than a 6 hour shift in a looong time. oh well i guess. more moneys for me!
hah, only 8 more days of school. i just read jessica's xanga, and it got me thinking. everyone talks about how much they will miss highschool. i will say thay i will miss being in highschool, but i wont miss burke. highschool is just so goddamn easy. i dont have any emotional attachments to burke, because i never allowed myself to have any. i was never into trying to be popular, and kissing the teachers' asses or any of that stuff. i just go there to work, get my grades, and graduate. i've never had many classes with my friends, and i never made an effort to make any new ones. i like to keep to myself. maybe thats a good thing, or a bad thing.. i dont know.
edit:// ok this is me today now
today i was reading through a few journals of people i know, and i cant help but be annoyed with all of the "im going to miss school blah blah blah" shit. some it in sincere, but really, do half of these people really care that highschool is almost out, or are are they acting like it, because thats just the "appropriate" feeling to have at this time. i cant stand situations like this, where you are supposed to be sad. like we all have preset emotions for certain situations. its always annoyed me, as early as i can remember. i remember being in kindergarten, and everyday the teacher would call up a new kid to put a sticker on the calendar, and i would watch everyday as the new kid walked up to the calendar with a huge smile on his face, and wanting to slap it off him, and occasionally you would get the kid who walked up trying to hold back a smile, when you sort of rap your lips around your teeth in a way that you still look like your smiling but not as wide as you had wanted.. i was that kid. i can remember wondering why i always had wanted to smile when i got a special priveledge like this, and telling myself its nothing to smile about. i have spent my whole life, trying to react to situations in a different way than everyone else.. ah im way off subject. anyway. i cant wait till im out of school. i especially cant wait till all those goddamn, so called popular kids get out of highschool.. they are going to realize that they arent shit.. and im going to laugh because i found that out a long time ago, and i dont care.
heh i just called myself a loser.. well anyway, i have to get ready for a soccer game. weee. :x
heh, im watching village of the damned. this movie so cheesey. anyway, im still sick, but not as sick as before. i left school early yesterday. i didnt get any sleep the night before, but i decided to go anyway and see how it went. by the beginning of 2nd hour i thought i was going to throw up, so i went to the nurse. my mom didnt answer the first time i called, but the second time i went to the nurse she answered. i ended up signing out and waiting for her to pick me up for like 40 minutes. i was kinda pissed, but whatever. i knew i should have driven myself to school. well, today i went to school because i feel waaaaaaaay better. i had to blow my nose like a billion times and now my nose is all red and raw. :(
so work last night was ok, i guess. i dont like crystal. shes one of the managers. shes bitchy sometimes. i didnt really want to go to work last night because i felt like shit, but i figured i might as well go so i wasnt another day behind in training. i wish i had gone to work on tuesday too, because now i have to work from 10 to whenever they let my off saturday and and then come back at 3 till most likely around 8. gaaay. its really not a lot of hours, but i dont want to work all day saturday. i havent worked longer than a 6 hour shift in a looong time. oh well i guess. more moneys for me!
hah, only 8 more days of school. i just read jessica's xanga, and it got me thinking. everyone talks about how much they will miss highschool. i will say thay i will miss being in highschool, but i wont miss burke. highschool is just so goddamn easy. i dont have any emotional attachments to burke, because i never allowed myself to have any. i was never into trying to be popular, and kissing the teachers' asses or any of that stuff. i just go there to work, get my grades, and graduate. i've never had many classes with my friends, and i never made an effort to make any new ones. i like to keep to myself. maybe thats a good thing, or a bad thing.. i dont know.
edit:// ok this is me today now
today i was reading through a few journals of people i know, and i cant help but be annoyed with all of the "im going to miss school blah blah blah" shit. some it in sincere, but really, do half of these people really care that highschool is almost out, or are are they acting like it, because thats just the "appropriate" feeling to have at this time. i cant stand situations like this, where you are supposed to be sad. like we all have preset emotions for certain situations. its always annoyed me, as early as i can remember. i remember being in kindergarten, and everyday the teacher would call up a new kid to put a sticker on the calendar, and i would watch everyday as the new kid walked up to the calendar with a huge smile on his face, and wanting to slap it off him, and occasionally you would get the kid who walked up trying to hold back a smile, when you sort of rap your lips around your teeth in a way that you still look like your smiling but not as wide as you had wanted.. i was that kid. i can remember wondering why i always had wanted to smile when i got a special priveledge like this, and telling myself its nothing to smile about. i have spent my whole life, trying to react to situations in a different way than everyone else.. ah im way off subject. anyway. i cant wait till im out of school. i especially cant wait till all those goddamn, so called popular kids get out of highschool.. they are going to realize that they arent shit.. and im going to laugh because i found that out a long time ago, and i dont care.
heh i just called myself a loser.. well anyway, i have to get ready for a soccer game. weee. :x