Will summer ever come?
I'm not sure why I just got the urge to post this.
It may be the weather's reminding me of last year or something.
I don't know.
Recently I can't figure out the way I feel about things.
I'll think about someone or something and not know whether I like them or not or why I feel that way.
I may be forgetting to think.
I think it was part of my mission to make myself happier.
I try to put a good spin on everything in my life.
I try to think of things in a good light, except for the few things that I need to hate to keep myself normal.
Such as Mr. Straw, my global teacher.
I think I do this every year with someone and then I realize later on that there's no substance to my explainations of why I hate them. I just hate them to channel my anger.
ANYWAYS!
I guess I am happier, although I wish I had more time, which is why I want summer so badly.
I have so much to do, or so much that I wish I could do or wish I wanted to do.
Like, I don't know. Help my mom with quilts like she's been asking me to.
I have nothing to do with my free time other than see my friends.
But I feel like my social life has been somewhat lacking.
Lately it feels like there's some universal rule that I can't see more than a small group of friends at a time. I think the more people I see, the less time I get to see them for.
Hopefully summer will change that. I've made so many friends this year, and I would hate to see that lost. I also really need to see my friends from last summer, I miss them so much. It's almost unbearable to have had so many people so close for months, then have them pulled away. Soon I'll be pulling them back harder than I have been. I need them.
I feel really temporary, and I don't know what to think of that.
I feel like I'm changing a lot, even more so in the past year or so.
I don't know if it's good or not.
It's as if I'm experimenting, but I don't have a constant background to see what the results are. I don't know if I've become some horribly obnoxious person, or someone who's just more optimistic and laid back. And sometimes really hyper.
I just counted a good 50 I's in that entry. Wow.
It may be the weather's reminding me of last year or something.
I don't know.
Recently I can't figure out the way I feel about things.
I'll think about someone or something and not know whether I like them or not or why I feel that way.
I may be forgetting to think.
I think it was part of my mission to make myself happier.
I try to put a good spin on everything in my life.
I try to think of things in a good light, except for the few things that I need to hate to keep myself normal.
Such as Mr. Straw, my global teacher.
I think I do this every year with someone and then I realize later on that there's no substance to my explainations of why I hate them. I just hate them to channel my anger.
ANYWAYS!
I guess I am happier, although I wish I had more time, which is why I want summer so badly.
I have so much to do, or so much that I wish I could do or wish I wanted to do.
Like, I don't know. Help my mom with quilts like she's been asking me to.
I have nothing to do with my free time other than see my friends.
But I feel like my social life has been somewhat lacking.
Lately it feels like there's some universal rule that I can't see more than a small group of friends at a time. I think the more people I see, the less time I get to see them for.
Hopefully summer will change that. I've made so many friends this year, and I would hate to see that lost. I also really need to see my friends from last summer, I miss them so much. It's almost unbearable to have had so many people so close for months, then have them pulled away. Soon I'll be pulling them back harder than I have been. I need them.
I feel really temporary, and I don't know what to think of that.
I feel like I'm changing a lot, even more so in the past year or so.
I don't know if it's good or not.
It's as if I'm experimenting, but I don't have a constant background to see what the results are. I don't know if I've become some horribly obnoxious person, or someone who's just more optimistic and laid back. And sometimes really hyper.
I just counted a good 50 I's in that entry. Wow.