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I can't feel my hands right now as I'm typing. I think i drank too much hahahha. I'm such a light weight. I'm just typing without thinking, sorry if I'm not making sense. I miss Shea, I wanna see her. It's raining really damn hard. She's such a beautiful girl. I need a girl now. My thoughts flow like a river. I can hear this song, I can feel this song in my body. It's a beautiful song. I want to have the courage to get what I want. My left eye is going blind, I see these floating light spots everyday. they're getting worse everyday. I'm scared of worryiing my Dad, he's got enough on his plate as it is. I want my eye to be better, but I'm afraid of the consequences of missing out class for a week. I miss people, i'm beginning to forget people and I don't want that. I'm really fucking thirsty right now. I need some water. Chips are really fucking salty. I cuss way too much. My roomate is going to have drunk sex with his girlfriend. How exciting. My name is Paul and I desperately need a shower. I don't want to do homework tomorrow. I need to call my parents tomorrow. Sleeping is gonna be a pain in the ass tomorrow. Jeez. School sucks, does someone wanna be my double and go to skool for me? Funny thing that happened the other day, Jenni L calls me and tells me to do an asian accent for her amusement, but she never calls me and she doesn't talk to me for months and thats the first thing she asks? how fucked up. I wish I was on my way to be a world famous chef but I'm stuck here trying to earn some bullshit degree. But dont' get me wrong, I like college, at least the people are nice if not superficial. I wonder how long I can ramble. i love rambling, ramble, ramble, ramble. I SWEAR I"M NOT ON ACID.