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i have this weird worrying feeling that i can't get rid of.
i think it's just a combination of everything that's finally hitting. still haven't heard from whitworth pt. i have no money. halley can't pay the cell phone bill this month, so it's gonna be a day late. i have to borrow $20 from joel to pay my health insurance. everything would be fine but my credit card and car insurance bill were both $50 more than normal. i want to say money will solve all my problems, but i know it won't.
i need to get my gre waiver from financial aid, she said she'd send it to me 3 weeks ago and hasn't yet. i need to start studying for the gre but i feel unmotivated since i'm not signed up for it yet.
joel is working like 14 hours a day this week because of ironman. when i don't talk to him as much, i get worried. i hate that i only get to see him 2 days a week. it's like i ache for him.
i hate that i worry. i hate that i have anxiousness. it affects me so much. it makes me worry about everything, almost get paranoid. i need to relax. i'm trying to stay busy, read, and pray about it.
i think i just need to have the security of having a job, knowing my bills are paid, and i need to spend a couple more days with joel.
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i think it's just a combination of everything that's finally hitting. still haven't heard from whitworth pt. i have no money. halley can't pay the cell phone bill this month, so it's gonna be a day late. i have to borrow $20 from joel to pay my health insurance. everything would be fine but my credit card and car insurance bill were both $50 more than normal. i want to say money will solve all my problems, but i know it won't.
i need to get my gre waiver from financial aid, she said she'd send it to me 3 weeks ago and hasn't yet. i need to start studying for the gre but i feel unmotivated since i'm not signed up for it yet.
joel is working like 14 hours a day this week because of ironman. when i don't talk to him as much, i get worried. i hate that i only get to see him 2 days a week. it's like i ache for him.
i hate that i worry. i hate that i have anxiousness. it affects me so much. it makes me worry about everything, almost get paranoid. i need to relax. i'm trying to stay busy, read, and pray about it.
i think i just need to have the security of having a job, knowing my bills are paid, and i need to spend a couple more days with joel.
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