guhh.
today i went to my cousin's bridal shower. i'm in the wedding so i had to go early to help set up and crap and i had to help throw the party, like put food out and clear stuff and all that. and i got to make the hat out of bows too when she opened presents. it was fun.
but theeeen, i went home and tried on my bridesmaid dress. i got fitted for it in december and i've gained weight since then so now its too tight. it makes me look like a pregnant lady. i hated the dress when i tried it on, but it wasn't bad. now it's just awful because its tight. and now i feel fat. i guess its kind of a good thing though, because now i have no choice but to lose weight so i have to actually try now. i have a month and a half to lose a good 5 to 10 pounds. but now i'm all like BAH no self-esteem because i got fat. i tried my prom dress on again and its a little snug too. but i can't lose much weight in a week and a half so i guess i'm gonna have to deal with that. i guess its all good though because i've been wanting to lose weight anyway. urrg. its from my medicine. stupid medicine, making my appetite all crazy and making me eat all the time making me get all chubby... >________< guhh.
and i stiiiill don't have all the things i need for prom, either. i went out twice this weekend and didn't get too far. on friday night me and mom went out and we got me a dress for graduation and a purse for prom. by the time we got to the mall it was closing in like a half an hour so we didn't have much time. the shoes i wanted were in a store in the mall and i tried them on but they were no good so we went upstairs to icing really quick but we only had like a minute to look. the girls working there were really rude and were all like BAAH WE'RE CLOSING IN 4 MINUTES BAAH and kept saying that like every minute and then they were like M'AM WE'RE CLOSED all rude-like to my mom so we left before i really got to find what i was looking for. then me and mommy went to a diner at like 10:00 at night and had breakfast food. it was fun. so then last night on saturday we went back out but i didn't have any luck. i found this one pair that i really liked and it was exactly what i wanted, but they were silver. they looked white but my mom was like no they're silver, you can't get them. so i was sad. so i have to go out again sometime this week because i still need shoes and a necklace and something for my hair. i want to wear my hair up but i can't because its too short. stupid hair. oh well.
i don't know when i'm gonna be able to work the week of prom either. because monday is memorial day and i don't know if my department will even be open. tuesday i can work, but i can't work on wednesday, thursday, or friday. i can work on saturday, but i'm gonna go in a little later than i usually do because i'm gonna be beat. usually i go in at 10 but i'm gonna go in at 12. only the thing is, my department closes at 4:00 on saturdays. and i have to have a minimum of 12 hours a week. so even if i did 6 hours on tuesday, and 4 hours on saturday, i'm 2 hours short. so i dunno. if my department is open on memorial day then i can do 4 hours monday, 4 hours tuesday, and 4 hours saturday. but i don't know if i can do that or not. so i dunno. i'll figure it out i guess.
tomorrow is the last full day of school yay! exams start on tuesday and i'm kinda nervous. the ethics exam is hard and scary. and i'm tired and braindead so i can't get into the studying mode but i reeeally need to. i'm actually supposed to be doing that now, since i can't do too much tomorrow night cuz i'm workin. bleh. the only thing i'm really gonna study for is ethics i think. history and art history i'm not worried about because i know it, i might just glance that over. and lit i think i know. so i think i'm good. i want to go to breakfast tuesday or wednesday in case anyones interested. krenzy i know you wanted to go. so yea. s'all good.
sorry for the long entry. hope i didn't make your eyes bleed.
but theeeen, i went home and tried on my bridesmaid dress. i got fitted for it in december and i've gained weight since then so now its too tight. it makes me look like a pregnant lady. i hated the dress when i tried it on, but it wasn't bad. now it's just awful because its tight. and now i feel fat. i guess its kind of a good thing though, because now i have no choice but to lose weight so i have to actually try now. i have a month and a half to lose a good 5 to 10 pounds. but now i'm all like BAH no self-esteem because i got fat. i tried my prom dress on again and its a little snug too. but i can't lose much weight in a week and a half so i guess i'm gonna have to deal with that. i guess its all good though because i've been wanting to lose weight anyway. urrg. its from my medicine. stupid medicine, making my appetite all crazy and making me eat all the time making me get all chubby... >________< guhh.
and i stiiiill don't have all the things i need for prom, either. i went out twice this weekend and didn't get too far. on friday night me and mom went out and we got me a dress for graduation and a purse for prom. by the time we got to the mall it was closing in like a half an hour so we didn't have much time. the shoes i wanted were in a store in the mall and i tried them on but they were no good so we went upstairs to icing really quick but we only had like a minute to look. the girls working there were really rude and were all like BAAH WE'RE CLOSING IN 4 MINUTES BAAH and kept saying that like every minute and then they were like M'AM WE'RE CLOSED all rude-like to my mom so we left before i really got to find what i was looking for. then me and mommy went to a diner at like 10:00 at night and had breakfast food. it was fun. so then last night on saturday we went back out but i didn't have any luck. i found this one pair that i really liked and it was exactly what i wanted, but they were silver. they looked white but my mom was like no they're silver, you can't get them. so i was sad. so i have to go out again sometime this week because i still need shoes and a necklace and something for my hair. i want to wear my hair up but i can't because its too short. stupid hair. oh well.
i don't know when i'm gonna be able to work the week of prom either. because monday is memorial day and i don't know if my department will even be open. tuesday i can work, but i can't work on wednesday, thursday, or friday. i can work on saturday, but i'm gonna go in a little later than i usually do because i'm gonna be beat. usually i go in at 10 but i'm gonna go in at 12. only the thing is, my department closes at 4:00 on saturdays. and i have to have a minimum of 12 hours a week. so even if i did 6 hours on tuesday, and 4 hours on saturday, i'm 2 hours short. so i dunno. if my department is open on memorial day then i can do 4 hours monday, 4 hours tuesday, and 4 hours saturday. but i don't know if i can do that or not. so i dunno. i'll figure it out i guess.
tomorrow is the last full day of school yay! exams start on tuesday and i'm kinda nervous. the ethics exam is hard and scary. and i'm tired and braindead so i can't get into the studying mode but i reeeally need to. i'm actually supposed to be doing that now, since i can't do too much tomorrow night cuz i'm workin. bleh. the only thing i'm really gonna study for is ethics i think. history and art history i'm not worried about because i know it, i might just glance that over. and lit i think i know. so i think i'm good. i want to go to breakfast tuesday or wednesday in case anyones interested. krenzy i know you wanted to go. so yea. s'all good.
sorry for the long entry. hope i didn't make your eyes bleed.