so it is down to you and it is down to me

[gnome05]

Okay, so, a little update for everyone interested (and those who aren't, well, sod off this is my journal). Buster/Dustin (who will from on be referred to as "the boy I haven't named") is here from Mexico; woot. I feel totally and utterly starved for any and all forms of attention. Eric spends his time either talking about or hanging out with

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[nehima]

I don't exactly know what to say, here, but I'm pretty sure that it wouldn't matter what I said. I'll just remind you of a few things.

My love for you is stable, healthy, powerful, and unchanging. We have a good thing going, and you know better than most people alive how much love I have in me, and there's enough to share with him too.

We will always have been the first ones here. We did it. On our own. We're amazing. Even if he ends up staying here longerm - in whatever situation/capacity - this place will still have been ours first. (And if he pisses us off, we'll pull a JP on his ass. haha. I get his shirts.)

You crave attention, it's true. But if he weren't here, you'd still want to read, you'd still want to watch your movies, and etc... I don't want you to think that us not spending every second at home together is in any way his fault or the fault of the new dynamic, because we wouldn't anyway. Try not to get jealous or anything of that nature just because it seems like there's a reason to, you dig? (Man, did I ever explain that bad.)

The point is, you've got nothing to worry about. I haven't changed the way I think of you, and I still want to spend lots of time with you. If you think things have changed, then they will change. If you allow things to not change, then they won't.

love ya.

[gnome05]

We'll talk when I get home....mostly because that way we can actually talk and stuff...I love you too.