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I already think I can't do artslam this month. It's a shame this group has to be a once-a-year challenge, because I love the idea of working on personal goals as a group (since I'm not the greatest in self-direction). I'd love to take part, I'm just not in the spirit. I can't take my art goals seriously right now because I'm having a hard time taking my general well-being seriously.
My state of mind is as unbalanced as it's ever been, and I'm going to have to make changes because as it stands I have too much contempt for myself to move an inch in any direction. I'm not trying hard enough to be less of a piece of shit. And I'm getting worse at being a person. And It's gross that I'm making anyone read this. I have a good reason not to check in too often, and it's that I don't care to be the one spreading contagious NÆGA-ENERGY :[ Oops, here we go again.
The upside to all this, and the reason why I care to mention my mental health at all, is that I'm seeking help with it. It's a start.
As for dropping out of the slam, I'm excusing myself from working constructively on a story to go doodle some other silly, painful, or awkward cutesyshit to appease my imagination. Like I do. Sounds like a cop-out, but I know where my outlet needs to be. I can't be guilted by my own fucking brain.
(PS: Sometime I will do a for-real sketch dump)
My state of mind is as unbalanced as it's ever been, and I'm going to have to make changes because as it stands I have too much contempt for myself to move an inch in any direction. I'm not trying hard enough to be less of a piece of shit. And I'm getting worse at being a person. And It's gross that I'm making anyone read this. I have a good reason not to check in too often, and it's that I don't care to be the one spreading contagious NÆGA-ENERGY :[ Oops, here we go again.
The upside to all this, and the reason why I care to mention my mental health at all, is that I'm seeking help with it. It's a start.
As for dropping out of the slam, I'm excusing myself from working constructively on a story to go doodle some other silly, painful, or awkward cutesyshit to appease my imagination. Like I do. Sounds like a cop-out, but I know where my outlet needs to be. I can't be guilted by my own fucking brain.
(PS: Sometime I will do a for-real sketch dump)