i'm so tired of lying awake

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i like to set a time aside each day
to torture myself in a different way
to think of another time that you forgot
and ponder everyone else i am not

think what about me i could have changed
how could i possibly be so deranged
that you left me to suffer amidst my spite
for the woman, no, girl who refused to fight

for the thing, the man, the boy she loved most
of all the things she'd ever seen on this coast
but where's that love, did you hide it inside
in order to savor a moment of pride

to think that you had everything you could need
a loved one to hold and a hand who can feed
who am i that you dont acknowledge the feeling
of love you still feel, like me you are reeling

but in a different way, you are stronger than i
and you distance yourself from what's deep inside
and you will til you're full of superficialities
and rely on me to bring you back to reality.

it's widely known i don't change
i'll be the same man in ten years, how strange
that you know this, and we both know we are not done
you hate knowing that i could still be the one