GOODMORNING
I woke up early this morning excited for the day and happy. i cant remember the last time i woke up excited but this is how i should wake everyday. I feel as though Ive gotten back something i've lost, faith in other people and myself. Yesterday my friend Chante came by and scooped me right off of the floor and then cleaned it haha literally the girl helped me clean my apt, and if you know me you know what an exceptional mess maker I am. She knew I was stressing out a lot and WEIRD making messes with my life so she bought me a card that really touched me and helped me clean, but she didnt just help me in that way, I dont think she even knows how much her gesture of kindness helped me. I cant describe it, I feel like the old me again. The girl that knows who she is and knows that there are a lot of messes everywhere, and yeah sometimes it feels like the whole universe is a giant painful mess and maybe thats exactly what it is, but messes can be cleaned. Its realizing that no matter how hopeless or sad or insignificant you feel/think you are youre not, there are so many possibilities and you can help people. we can help each other, and being as we are each part of this giant painful mess, we should cause thats what matters. haha god I sound like a douche lame and cliche as heck no revolutionary discoveries or anything its all been said before, but i think to really realize these things, simple as they are IS revolutionary. and WE are revolutionary and capable of fixing messes!
now im going to fix the mess ive created ive got a long list of things to take care of one being $1000 in fines and ummm get some car insurance... fyi dont drive uninsured or you get screwed yeah i know DUH right? haha its all good, nothing i cant fix. : ).
now im going to fix the mess ive created ive got a long list of things to take care of one being $1000 in fines and ummm get some car insurance... fyi dont drive uninsured or you get screwed yeah i know DUH right? haha its all good, nothing i cant fix. : ).