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So I move out on Saturday, and I've been crying like every five minutes because of it.
Don't get me wrong. I'm completely excited. It's just I'm actually, like, moving OUT. I won't be a few blocks away where I can just walk to my parents' house or have them come get me in five minutes or less. I'm moving out, paying bills, surviving on my own. It's terrifying. Plus I won't have my mommy and daddy at my beck and call, and I won't have my sister there to be my sister when I need her. I'm really scared. And it's just a lot to deal with. I'm leaving, REALLY leaving, my home.
But I'm making a new home and a new life with a man that I love and who loves me. I'll be taken care of, and I'll take care of him. It's not that he's all I need, but he's a large majority of it. He's my source of comfort, of love, of companionship, pleasure, support, warmth, all in one body, and I'll have him next to me all the time.
The first couple of months will probably be hard, but I know we'll make it. Matt got an on-campus job today, he's started school and gets financial aid on the first of the month, and there are lots of opportunities for employment within a fifteen- or twenty-minute bus ride of the house.
I'm excited. I guess I just need to stop thinking so much.
Don't get me wrong. I'm completely excited. It's just I'm actually, like, moving OUT. I won't be a few blocks away where I can just walk to my parents' house or have them come get me in five minutes or less. I'm moving out, paying bills, surviving on my own. It's terrifying. Plus I won't have my mommy and daddy at my beck and call, and I won't have my sister there to be my sister when I need her. I'm really scared. And it's just a lot to deal with. I'm leaving, REALLY leaving, my home.
But I'm making a new home and a new life with a man that I love and who loves me. I'll be taken care of, and I'll take care of him. It's not that he's all I need, but he's a large majority of it. He's my source of comfort, of love, of companionship, pleasure, support, warmth, all in one body, and I'll have him next to me all the time.
The first couple of months will probably be hard, but I know we'll make it. Matt got an on-campus job today, he's started school and gets financial aid on the first of the month, and there are lots of opportunities for employment within a fifteen- or twenty-minute bus ride of the house.
I'm excited. I guess I just need to stop thinking so much.