wow its been a while since i have updated this thing
well my excuse is that i havnt had much time that is free recently. everyday i am going from either 9:30 or 10 AM to either 6 or 8 PM and now i have an internship that is gonna require lots of outside work. i am working for a company that builds curb building machines and they want me to cut down on their hazardous waste product. only problem is i have no idea what i am doing and on top of that they are already a pretty environmentally friendly company.
i have my first wrestling torniment this saturday. hopefully i wont get my ass kicked.
tonight was a nice night just because i turned in my Philo application with my good buddys Alex and Tim. we went over to the chappel and turned in our applications to Dr. Clapp, the man that i respect the most on this campas and respect more than most people i have ever met. he is the pastor for the college and is also a professor and like the most knowledgable person i have ever met. i bet he could build a spaceship and fly to the moon and back if he wanted. we talked to D.C. for a while and eventually said our good bye's. we then explored the chappel in the dark and i scared the shit out of Alex. after that i had to go make some GIS maps at the E-Sci building.
I signed on the net and saw that the one girl here that i would like to date was signed on aim. that made me happy cause she is just an awsome person. i havnt really had as much chance to get to know her as i would like but you can tell when someone is just a great person. every time i see her she is smiling. i am very much a smile man, some guys are tit guys or ass guys or leg guys, man all that stuff is good but i am all about the smile. a girl who has a good smile just makes me melt. i mean im just puddin. and she shows off her smile lots. everytime i see her she is smiling (i would like to think its cause of me, but i know its not) and i just melt. i am not smooth with her at all. we wind up talking about dumb ass shit. hell we may as well talk about the wether. come to think of it we probably had a conversation about the wether once. im better at talking to her online cause she cant use her smile on me. so i deside to talk to her but i had to whoop this dunces ass at chess online first. after i finish she had put an away message up. something about wanting a guy who lets her know how special she was and a guy who describes her as beautiful unstead of hot, you know, mushy type stuff. and whats scarry is i was thinking that i could see my self doing that kind of mushy kinda stuff w/ her. well i guess to explain better, the type of girl that she is, i wouldnt mind being mushy with her. but i get down to the bottom and she says something to the extent of im glad i have a guy like that, i love my Daniel. well this doesnt come as a supprise to me because i already knew she had a bf named Daniel. but it reaffirmed what i thought before which is they are very much inlove with eachother and probably wont be breaking up any time soon. just from the kind of person she is, i can tell that she wouldnt just go out with someone if it didnt mean anything. she isnt the kind of girl who just dates someone to be dating someone. so she would wind up with the kind of guy that she doesnt want to break up with. so it just reaffirmed the fact that i have no chance, which actually, if this makes any sence, made me happy. now i can get over it. no point in hanging on to something that isnt possable. and it will give me the chance to get to know her without that maybe i have a chance feeling. i mean she is an awsome person and wether i can go out with her or not i would really like to get to know this girl better. the only thing that i am hoping for is that they started going out a while ago cause if i find out that they started going out just recently it would have ment that there was one point where i did have a chance and i let it pass me by.
well its late and i have 2 get up early to go running to drop some weight for my wrestling torniment on Sat, plus i just need to get back in shape.
i have my first wrestling torniment this saturday. hopefully i wont get my ass kicked.
tonight was a nice night just because i turned in my Philo application with my good buddys Alex and Tim. we went over to the chappel and turned in our applications to Dr. Clapp, the man that i respect the most on this campas and respect more than most people i have ever met. he is the pastor for the college and is also a professor and like the most knowledgable person i have ever met. i bet he could build a spaceship and fly to the moon and back if he wanted. we talked to D.C. for a while and eventually said our good bye's. we then explored the chappel in the dark and i scared the shit out of Alex. after that i had to go make some GIS maps at the E-Sci building.
I signed on the net and saw that the one girl here that i would like to date was signed on aim. that made me happy cause she is just an awsome person. i havnt really had as much chance to get to know her as i would like but you can tell when someone is just a great person. every time i see her she is smiling. i am very much a smile man, some guys are tit guys or ass guys or leg guys, man all that stuff is good but i am all about the smile. a girl who has a good smile just makes me melt. i mean im just puddin. and she shows off her smile lots. everytime i see her she is smiling (i would like to think its cause of me, but i know its not) and i just melt. i am not smooth with her at all. we wind up talking about dumb ass shit. hell we may as well talk about the wether. come to think of it we probably had a conversation about the wether once. im better at talking to her online cause she cant use her smile on me. so i deside to talk to her but i had to whoop this dunces ass at chess online first. after i finish she had put an away message up. something about wanting a guy who lets her know how special she was and a guy who describes her as beautiful unstead of hot, you know, mushy type stuff. and whats scarry is i was thinking that i could see my self doing that kind of mushy kinda stuff w/ her. well i guess to explain better, the type of girl that she is, i wouldnt mind being mushy with her. but i get down to the bottom and she says something to the extent of im glad i have a guy like that, i love my Daniel. well this doesnt come as a supprise to me because i already knew she had a bf named Daniel. but it reaffirmed what i thought before which is they are very much inlove with eachother and probably wont be breaking up any time soon. just from the kind of person she is, i can tell that she wouldnt just go out with someone if it didnt mean anything. she isnt the kind of girl who just dates someone to be dating someone. so she would wind up with the kind of guy that she doesnt want to break up with. so it just reaffirmed the fact that i have no chance, which actually, if this makes any sence, made me happy. now i can get over it. no point in hanging on to something that isnt possable. and it will give me the chance to get to know her without that maybe i have a chance feeling. i mean she is an awsome person and wether i can go out with her or not i would really like to get to know this girl better. the only thing that i am hoping for is that they started going out a while ago cause if i find out that they started going out just recently it would have ment that there was one point where i did have a chance and i let it pass me by.
well its late and i have 2 get up early to go running to drop some weight for my wrestling torniment on Sat, plus i just need to get back in shape.