I'm like a wheezing fucking robot.
Where to begin?
I'm fucking sick. Thanks Evelyn.
Like, started with this kinda dry, unproductive cough, and a tickling at the back of my throat. I drank a bunch of OJ and V8, wrapped up like crazy in my blanket, took some NyQuil and hoped to sleep it off. I woke up last night feeling like absolute shit. Now I'm coughing shit up, and my sinuses are getting all fucked up too. And my chest hurts when I cough, it's like I'm coughing up mustard gas or some crazy shit. Night number 2 that I've been sick, I'm coughing more shit up, but my chest doesn't hurt as much anymore. This feels like late March of this year, how come I never catch the flu but I always catch a headcold that turns into Bronchitus shortly thereafter? Dammit.
Umm, I've decided to get benefits this year. There were a few times last year where if I had insurance I'd have went to see a doctor, or I'd have gotten stitches instead of butterfly-stitching my leg when I got stabbed last year. So yeah, the price isn't THAT bad, still a 4% increase from last year, but what can you do?
Security.NL released an article today saying that there's a worm attacking jailbroken iphones spreading at epidemic-type rates. They change the system passwords, reboot your phone, and connect to WiFi, uploading any personal information on your phone to the attacker, including but not limited to online banking information. It can also be set up and used as a Botnet, making it even more dangerous. As of now it's unclear whether standard iPhones are safe. It's assumed that they are, but they're testing if a jailbroken iPhone can spread the virus to a standard one if they're both on the same WiFi connection. Go figure, you have all these guys that aren't happy with what their wonderbrick can do, and so they have to hack it. Well, here's payback for you then.
Speaking of security breaches Microsoft announced a glaring hole in Internet Explorer again, affecting everything from IE 5.2 up to IE 7.X. They're saying Win98 IE users are safe, and anyone using IE8 is safe from this as well. Microsoft's fix, as for not being taken advantage of by this script-hole? Turn your security settings to "High" and disable Java. HAHAHAHA. Really? Disable Java, disable cookies, and completely cripple your IE so you can't do anything flash based on the web, great fix.
If you're reading this in Internet Explorer, do me a favor. Go download Firefox. Actually, go download Google Chrome. I've been using it since closed Beta, and it's teh s3x.
I think Agent X and I are going to be in trouble soon. I was talking to my sister about trust in relationships and such. The reason Agent X doesn't want to make us official right now, is because she feels I betrayed her trust. She feels like she can't trust me again because she has this odd feeling that I'm going to hurt her, however unintentional. She said she feels like she needs to be 100% sure that she can trust me enough to be in a relationship. That she can be sure I won't cheat on her, mainly that I won't go running back to Jessica. That she can be sure that I'm not going to hurt her just to get something or someone that I want, and that she can be sure that if she really needs me, she knows I'm going to be there. I told her that I don't mind being in the doghouse and proving to her that she can trust me, as long as she's going to give me a fair chance at it all.
But there's still that time-old divide that says things will be easier without her. And talking to my sister about it and stuff the other morning, it's like, she still doesn't know a lot of things about me. And the reason for a lot of that is because I choose to hide a lot of things from her. For instance, she knows that I enjoy my video games. But she basically thinks that Halo is about the extent of it, I never felt, for some reason, any need to tell her that I play WoW a lot. And that I often schedule my work around raid times, if it's possible that week. And still, not even knowing that, she jokingly says a lot that the worst part about me is my video game addict side. Hmmm. Then there's the whole weekend warrior type stoner lifestyle I live. Which she has NO idea about. She's anti-everything-except-alcohol. She hates the fact that I smoke, and a few months ago when I was feeling it out, there was a guy at my desk who was obviously quite stoned. When she said that guy must've been messed up on something, I said he was just really really stoned, I could smell the weed on him. Her reply was "God, I hate fucking druggies." That was pretty much the point where I went, alright, there's a part of me that you'll never get to know. So, now I ask myself this: Do I love her enough that I would be honest with her about myself, and my habits both good and bad? And if I do, is it going to ruin any chance of anything else ever developing between us? The defensive half of me says that it shouldn't even be taken into consideration as a problem unless I'm blowing her off to go catch a buzz, forgetting her birthday, shit like that. The other half of me says that I'm almost 25 years old, and maybe it's time to grow up and give it a rest. My biggest fear is that I'm going to spend all this time proving to her that she can trust me, just to throw a couple bombshells like this, where I've basically hid something from her for months, and break her heart and shatter any trust she might've had left.
Damn. If I weren't so god-damned nice, this wouldn't be a problem. Originally I saw it as, what she don't know don't hurt her, and we're just kinda casually dating anyway, so she doesn't have a right to know to begin with. Now I find myself thinking more along the lines of "with everything we've gone through, I owe this girl the truth."
Oy.
Wednesday and Thursday off, 3-11 for the crazy-ass hockey weekend. I better be feeling better by Friday, I'm gonna need to be in top shape that afternoon.
And I'm spending another night of overnight talking to and texting my sister's friend... again. Guilt's a bitch.
I'm fucking sick. Thanks Evelyn.
Like, started with this kinda dry, unproductive cough, and a tickling at the back of my throat. I drank a bunch of OJ and V8, wrapped up like crazy in my blanket, took some NyQuil and hoped to sleep it off. I woke up last night feeling like absolute shit. Now I'm coughing shit up, and my sinuses are getting all fucked up too. And my chest hurts when I cough, it's like I'm coughing up mustard gas or some crazy shit. Night number 2 that I've been sick, I'm coughing more shit up, but my chest doesn't hurt as much anymore. This feels like late March of this year, how come I never catch the flu but I always catch a headcold that turns into Bronchitus shortly thereafter? Dammit.
Umm, I've decided to get benefits this year. There were a few times last year where if I had insurance I'd have went to see a doctor, or I'd have gotten stitches instead of butterfly-stitching my leg when I got stabbed last year. So yeah, the price isn't THAT bad, still a 4% increase from last year, but what can you do?
Security.NL released an article today saying that there's a worm attacking jailbroken iphones spreading at epidemic-type rates. They change the system passwords, reboot your phone, and connect to WiFi, uploading any personal information on your phone to the attacker, including but not limited to online banking information. It can also be set up and used as a Botnet, making it even more dangerous. As of now it's unclear whether standard iPhones are safe. It's assumed that they are, but they're testing if a jailbroken iPhone can spread the virus to a standard one if they're both on the same WiFi connection. Go figure, you have all these guys that aren't happy with what their wonderbrick can do, and so they have to hack it. Well, here's payback for you then.
Speaking of security breaches Microsoft announced a glaring hole in Internet Explorer again, affecting everything from IE 5.2 up to IE 7.X. They're saying Win98 IE users are safe, and anyone using IE8 is safe from this as well. Microsoft's fix, as for not being taken advantage of by this script-hole? Turn your security settings to "High" and disable Java. HAHAHAHA. Really? Disable Java, disable cookies, and completely cripple your IE so you can't do anything flash based on the web, great fix.
If you're reading this in Internet Explorer, do me a favor. Go download Firefox. Actually, go download Google Chrome. I've been using it since closed Beta, and it's teh s3x.
I think Agent X and I are going to be in trouble soon. I was talking to my sister about trust in relationships and such. The reason Agent X doesn't want to make us official right now, is because she feels I betrayed her trust. She feels like she can't trust me again because she has this odd feeling that I'm going to hurt her, however unintentional. She said she feels like she needs to be 100% sure that she can trust me enough to be in a relationship. That she can be sure I won't cheat on her, mainly that I won't go running back to Jessica. That she can be sure that I'm not going to hurt her just to get something or someone that I want, and that she can be sure that if she really needs me, she knows I'm going to be there. I told her that I don't mind being in the doghouse and proving to her that she can trust me, as long as she's going to give me a fair chance at it all.
But there's still that time-old divide that says things will be easier without her. And talking to my sister about it and stuff the other morning, it's like, she still doesn't know a lot of things about me. And the reason for a lot of that is because I choose to hide a lot of things from her. For instance, she knows that I enjoy my video games. But she basically thinks that Halo is about the extent of it, I never felt, for some reason, any need to tell her that I play WoW a lot. And that I often schedule my work around raid times, if it's possible that week. And still, not even knowing that, she jokingly says a lot that the worst part about me is my video game addict side. Hmmm. Then there's the whole weekend warrior type stoner lifestyle I live. Which she has NO idea about. She's anti-everything-except-alcohol. She hates the fact that I smoke, and a few months ago when I was feeling it out, there was a guy at my desk who was obviously quite stoned. When she said that guy must've been messed up on something, I said he was just really really stoned, I could smell the weed on him. Her reply was "God, I hate fucking druggies." That was pretty much the point where I went, alright, there's a part of me that you'll never get to know. So, now I ask myself this: Do I love her enough that I would be honest with her about myself, and my habits both good and bad? And if I do, is it going to ruin any chance of anything else ever developing between us? The defensive half of me says that it shouldn't even be taken into consideration as a problem unless I'm blowing her off to go catch a buzz, forgetting her birthday, shit like that. The other half of me says that I'm almost 25 years old, and maybe it's time to grow up and give it a rest. My biggest fear is that I'm going to spend all this time proving to her that she can trust me, just to throw a couple bombshells like this, where I've basically hid something from her for months, and break her heart and shatter any trust she might've had left.
Damn. If I weren't so god-damned nice, this wouldn't be a problem. Originally I saw it as, what she don't know don't hurt her, and we're just kinda casually dating anyway, so she doesn't have a right to know to begin with. Now I find myself thinking more along the lines of "with everything we've gone through, I owe this girl the truth."
Oy.
Wednesday and Thursday off, 3-11 for the crazy-ass hockey weekend. I better be feeling better by Friday, I'm gonna need to be in top shape that afternoon.
And I'm spending another night of overnight talking to and texting my sister's friend... again. Guilt's a bitch.