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Yeah, who cares, I know. I still struggle with it, but I guess who doesn't? When making an effort to let go of it, I always feel it's working against the social pressure, so to speak, to always strive to surpass X, etc etc. There are times that I do need to just let it all go, and ground myself. To allow myself to become paramount for myself, it doesn't seem selfish, to an extreme anyway. We're designed as self-serving creatures, after all.
I can relate to the occassional feeling that what I'm doing / where I am / who I'm with is beyond, and underneath me. That I'm somehow wasting my time and my abilities / qualities / etc. where I am now. I don't like feeling that way, as it tends to mark for me the start of a period in my life where I'm jaded and depressed. Maybe next time it happens, I'll remember this and see if I can't let it go, and allow myself to remain grounded and in the present. For whatever reason it may be, I think too damned much, and until you wrote this I didn't realize just how often my head IS in the clouds. How often I'm living in the past, or dreaming of the future. I tend to not give the present, the middle-ground so to speak any sort of real thought.
If I were in the habit of slowing down, realizing and taking in the moment, and applying it learning about myself, I think I may have better results. Thanks for that man, it's something I'll strive towards and work with, I'll keep ya posted.
Yeah, getting together again some time in the near future would be full of own. Your schedule has shifted now, yeah? How's December look for you?
my sched for dec is pretty laxed...i'll be outta town the 9th - 16th, and really its holiday times after that, but keep me posted on your schedule. I'm still off weekends, so that'd be the best time
I can relate to the occassional feeling that what I'm doing / where I am / who I'm with is beyond, and underneath me. That I'm somehow wasting my time and my abilities / qualities / etc. where I am now. I don't like feeling that way, as it tends to mark for me the start of a period in my life where I'm jaded and depressed. Maybe next time it happens, I'll remember this and see if I can't let it go, and allow myself to remain grounded and in the present. For whatever reason it may be, I think too damned much, and until you wrote this I didn't realize just how often my head IS in the clouds. How often I'm living in the past, or dreaming of the future. I tend to not give the present, the middle-ground so to speak any sort of real thought.
If I were in the habit of slowing down, realizing and taking in the moment, and applying it learning about myself, I think I may have better results. Thanks for that man, it's something I'll strive towards and work with, I'll keep ya posted.
Yeah, getting together again some time in the near future would be full of own. Your schedule has shifted now, yeah? How's December look for you?
Gene
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