R to the Y to the AN~!

[gludington2002]

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wow...

[rforgione]

a post all for me, I'm honored, lol. I'll keep this short, cause 1 I just woke up, and 2 it's all I can think of at the moment. By in the middle balance, so to speak is more like recognizing you don't have to be better than X, or even knowing you're worse than Y, because in reality, WHO CARES?! You are you, focus on you, sure be great, but be great for yourself. We are ultimately selfish, though don't take this wrong. I am still very compassionate, but I'm realizing that 1. I am the only thing I somewhat know to be true (I am aware of my own consciousness, and cannot be sure if you are even another that I am interacting with or something else, so I live by habituation to assume you are real like me...but i digress).
Philosophy is fun huh?

Na basically, the balance thing for me is semi personal, I haven't walked in your shoes, nor you mine, so for me it personally recognizing that I've always been in the middle. Lemme give an example and you'll see what I mean / how it may help and/or apply to you as well. There are many a time where I feel like whatever the situation I am in is below me somehow, like below my overall abilities, but I also am not at that "elite" point I think I'd like to be at. My balance is, who cares? Sure we all seek greatness, but for me it's realizing that at this moment I'll take where I am and apply it to learning new things about myself and adapt it to whatever mindset my brain is currently at. So I relish in the fact that it's not as good as X, but it's not worse than Y, and what that means is I'm in the middle, I'm grounded, I'm in the PRESENT! MY head's not in the clouds wondering what could be or what once was. I'm sitting in the one thing I can know to be happening (the right now) and taking what I can from it. Sure easier said than done, but I hope you see my point.

Peace man, we need to hangout again soon
Ryan

Re: wow...

[gludington2002]

Yeah, who cares, I know. I still struggle with it, but I guess who doesn't? When making an effort to let go of it, I always feel it's working against the social pressure, so to speak, to always strive to surpass X, etc etc. There are times that I do need to just let it all go, and ground myself. To allow myself to become paramount for myself, it doesn't seem selfish, to an extreme anyway. We're designed as self-serving creatures, after all.

I can relate to the occassional feeling that what I'm doing / where I am / who I'm with is beyond, and underneath me. That I'm somehow wasting my time and my abilities / qualities / etc. where I am now. I don't like feeling that way, as it tends to mark for me the start of a period in my life where I'm jaded and depressed. Maybe next time it happens, I'll remember this and see if I can't let it go, and allow myself to remain grounded and in the present. For whatever reason it may be, I think too damned much, and until you wrote this I didn't realize just how often my head IS in the clouds. How often I'm living in the past, or dreaming of the future. I tend to not give the present, the middle-ground so to speak any sort of real thought.

If I were in the habit of slowing down, realizing and taking in the moment, and applying it learning about myself, I think I may have better results. Thanks for that man, it's something I'll strive towards and work with, I'll keep ya posted.

Yeah, getting together again some time in the near future would be full of own. Your schedule has shifted now, yeah? How's December look for you?

Gene

Re: wow...

[rforgione]

my sched for dec is pretty laxed...i'll be outta town the 9th - 16th, and really its holiday times after that, but keep me posted on your schedule. I'm still off weekends, so that'd be the best time