Reminiscence...
Yeah, life throws you curves,
But you've learned to swerve,
Me, I swung and I missed,
And the next thing ya know, I'm reminiscing...
Dreaming old dreams, wishing old wishes,
Like you would be back again...
I wake up and tear drops they fall down like rain,
I put on that old song we danced to and then,
I head off to my job, I guess not much has changed,
Punch the clock, head for home,
Check the phone, just in case,
Go to bed, dream of you,
That's what I'm doin' these days...
That's a really good song. I used to think that it was written just for me, back when I was all stupidly depressed, and the like. Was right around this time, last year. As I was leaving Pittsburgh, still smoking pot all the time, and just doing nothing with myself. Things really changed not long after I came home... Didn't last for too long, but it was a pretty much needed boost to morale, for lack of a better term. Haven't really gone back to such a depraved state in a while... So listening to it tonight, pretty much brought me to tears. Haha, that song used to be like my Bible. But away from the past, and into the present, or, the not so distant past.
Past few days have been kinda uneventful I suppose. Swimming a couple times with Ashley and Evelyn. I wish I could swim a couple hours everyday, it feels really good to actually do something. Starter went out on the Explorer, got that taken care of, in the process of putting that back in, it's a dirty, dirty whore. Was supposed to go down to Lewisburg, for another Wing Night with Shane and Amanda, and maybe Courtney and crew, but oh well, that didn't happen. Talked to Ryan the other day. He was explaining about the tat that he wants next. I think it'll look sweet. I keep saying it, but I will go down and see him and the guys sometime...
Dyson went back to Portugal, 'til November. But he has AIM now, so I can keep in touch with him a bit. I guess I could probably hang out with Steve a little more, but I kinda fear that. Cuz well, he smokes, and he offers it to me, I'd rather not put myself in that situation. Ehh, shit happens. Wonder if it's a bad thing to be hanging out with my sister and her friend more than my own friends... Ha, that's attributed to the fact that all my friends don't live nearby. Speaking of which, I need to get my fucking car fixed. Here I am, working with a fledgeling business for Auto repair and detailing, and my own car isn't up to par. Ahh irony.
Been doing a lot of thinking about the past too...
"i miss august of 04"
Yea, I do too. I really do. I think that was kinda a turning point. Hopefully things improve beyond what they are now. A lot of... mental anguish, I guess, for lack of a better term. A lot of "Why's" and "What if's" running through my head. Wishing I could go back and change things, or just go back, knowing what I know now. But that's not really healthy... I mean, what happened, happened, and nothing you can say or do is going to change it. Time to live for the present, and the future. Who knows, things might even work out my way for once. That'd be a break. Just things going haywire everywhere I look. I think I feel the need for a constant, something that I can rely on that is always gonna be there, no matter how fucked up things seem to be... I miss things though, I really do... I think I'm gonna start laying out and looking at the stars again, that was always my constant. Although it always somewhat depressed me, as it seemed like a desperation move, to find consolation in the stars and whatnot. But it comforts me, it helps me feel that things are gonna be alright. Yup, star-gazing will go back in my empty schedule.
I dunno, all this thinking and remembering, my head and heart hurts... I'm going to bed
Oh yeah... Howie, Herbie, Hewey... Al and Clicky =D
But you've learned to swerve,
Me, I swung and I missed,
And the next thing ya know, I'm reminiscing...
Dreaming old dreams, wishing old wishes,
Like you would be back again...
I wake up and tear drops they fall down like rain,
I put on that old song we danced to and then,
I head off to my job, I guess not much has changed,
Punch the clock, head for home,
Check the phone, just in case,
Go to bed, dream of you,
That's what I'm doin' these days...
That's a really good song. I used to think that it was written just for me, back when I was all stupidly depressed, and the like. Was right around this time, last year. As I was leaving Pittsburgh, still smoking pot all the time, and just doing nothing with myself. Things really changed not long after I came home... Didn't last for too long, but it was a pretty much needed boost to morale, for lack of a better term. Haven't really gone back to such a depraved state in a while... So listening to it tonight, pretty much brought me to tears. Haha, that song used to be like my Bible. But away from the past, and into the present, or, the not so distant past.
Past few days have been kinda uneventful I suppose. Swimming a couple times with Ashley and Evelyn. I wish I could swim a couple hours everyday, it feels really good to actually do something. Starter went out on the Explorer, got that taken care of, in the process of putting that back in, it's a dirty, dirty whore. Was supposed to go down to Lewisburg, for another Wing Night with Shane and Amanda, and maybe Courtney and crew, but oh well, that didn't happen. Talked to Ryan the other day. He was explaining about the tat that he wants next. I think it'll look sweet. I keep saying it, but I will go down and see him and the guys sometime...
Dyson went back to Portugal, 'til November. But he has AIM now, so I can keep in touch with him a bit. I guess I could probably hang out with Steve a little more, but I kinda fear that. Cuz well, he smokes, and he offers it to me, I'd rather not put myself in that situation. Ehh, shit happens. Wonder if it's a bad thing to be hanging out with my sister and her friend more than my own friends... Ha, that's attributed to the fact that all my friends don't live nearby. Speaking of which, I need to get my fucking car fixed. Here I am, working with a fledgeling business for Auto repair and detailing, and my own car isn't up to par. Ahh irony.
Been doing a lot of thinking about the past too...
"i miss august of 04"
Yea, I do too. I really do. I think that was kinda a turning point. Hopefully things improve beyond what they are now. A lot of... mental anguish, I guess, for lack of a better term. A lot of "Why's" and "What if's" running through my head. Wishing I could go back and change things, or just go back, knowing what I know now. But that's not really healthy... I mean, what happened, happened, and nothing you can say or do is going to change it. Time to live for the present, and the future. Who knows, things might even work out my way for once. That'd be a break. Just things going haywire everywhere I look. I think I feel the need for a constant, something that I can rely on that is always gonna be there, no matter how fucked up things seem to be... I miss things though, I really do... I think I'm gonna start laying out and looking at the stars again, that was always my constant. Although it always somewhat depressed me, as it seemed like a desperation move, to find consolation in the stars and whatnot. But it comforts me, it helps me feel that things are gonna be alright. Yup, star-gazing will go back in my empty schedule.
I dunno, all this thinking and remembering, my head and heart hurts... I'm going to bed
Oh yeah... Howie, Herbie, Hewey... Al and Clicky =D