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damn it! why is it always when i find something great and special it slowly dies into nothing? I mean i know i have a great place to start new here but it seems like its slowly fading into nothing yeah. I guess it could be just because im homesick and stuburn. i suppose it also could because i wont let anyone else truly into my life. or maybe it because as much as i would love to let go completly of some people i cant. and as long as i keep then close to heart and if i keep on being as stuburn as i am i wont let anyone get even close to knowing me turly.
i would love to open up and show people the true side of me the side most dont even get a glimps of yeah. I am also not happy with myself right now. i mean i like where im at in life and all but there is something missing, and i desperatly need to put a fingure on it soon, or i am goin to break. I would love to talk to a few kids soon but it doesnt look like i will. im surprised kids even read this still..... hahahahaha, im uber tired and im hungry! cheers to life and that after.....
And now I am feeling like people around me dont really want me around.... do you know that feeling you get when you feel like your not welcome or they might not want you there at the time? i have no clue maybe im not cut out for those kids.... i wish i could make my friends happy again. i miss louisville.....
i would love to open up and show people the true side of me the side most dont even get a glimps of yeah. I am also not happy with myself right now. i mean i like where im at in life and all but there is something missing, and i desperatly need to put a fingure on it soon, or i am goin to break. I would love to talk to a few kids soon but it doesnt look like i will. im surprised kids even read this still..... hahahahaha, im uber tired and im hungry! cheers to life and that after.....
And now I am feeling like people around me dont really want me around.... do you know that feeling you get when you feel like your not welcome or they might not want you there at the time? i have no clue maybe im not cut out for those kids.... i wish i could make my friends happy again. i miss louisville.....