just one
ive noticed that i update this thing every once in a green moon, cause once in a blue moon isnt even as near as long i wait to update this.
i have alot of hatred in my heart, and im in love
it is a ugly combination.
I cant seem to trust her. And she cant seem to learn. She denies me as soon as she can. But from now on i wont check up on her. Lord help me, i need your strenght
I look forward to going to church now. Hopefully i get sundays off now.
On the other hand. i scared myself today. I felt something i dont ever want to feel again. Please Jesus Christ our Lord and savier help me. Help those around me. i want to throw up so bad.
sleep isnt enough any more. i hardly sleep. ITs wierd.
School is fine. Grades are steady and good.
Love life is a rollercoaster. But im real when i say, She is the only one that makes me happy. But she hasnt lately. Matter of fact she has been doin the opposite.
Got a car, and a truck now. Its fun. Ones a GAS HOG, and the other is bilemic. ITs wonderful. Work is so understanding, i love it less than i should, im learning alot of hands on. It should help when im on my own.
this small room doesnt bother me that much, but the house im gonna check out tomarrow should be a spectacular time. I hope is has what i need.
My mother is number one. She has to be right now. She is the only one that doesnt dissapoint me. But what do you expect. She is the only one that gives me 120% of her time. How could any body else do that for me.
Im a nice guy. I care to much some times. i trust with everything.
But i am so cold.
...too cold... it aint even right sometimes..
one shot with me, make a mistake, and you go in the trash with all the others.
....their are so many others..
thats to depressing to remember.
Im glad not many read this. Cause few know me. And im pretty darn specail.
ive acomplished alot in so little time. Im on my 3rd job in houston. in a peroid of 5 months
when lots of people have the hardest time. i have transportation.
THANKS TO GOD.
God is so good. he is my only father that i know. My moms husband died long ago,. 3 years old. my mom was on her own. Always got food on the table, even with a sister like mine. Getting involved in gangs. Ive seen as a child that you only seen in movies.
wish i was in church right now.
i could really use a hug right now.
well its night time. sleep time.
i have alot of hatred in my heart, and im in love
it is a ugly combination.
I cant seem to trust her. And she cant seem to learn. She denies me as soon as she can. But from now on i wont check up on her. Lord help me, i need your strenght
I look forward to going to church now. Hopefully i get sundays off now.
On the other hand. i scared myself today. I felt something i dont ever want to feel again. Please Jesus Christ our Lord and savier help me. Help those around me. i want to throw up so bad.
sleep isnt enough any more. i hardly sleep. ITs wierd.
School is fine. Grades are steady and good.
Love life is a rollercoaster. But im real when i say, She is the only one that makes me happy. But she hasnt lately. Matter of fact she has been doin the opposite.
Got a car, and a truck now. Its fun. Ones a GAS HOG, and the other is bilemic. ITs wonderful. Work is so understanding, i love it less than i should, im learning alot of hands on. It should help when im on my own.
this small room doesnt bother me that much, but the house im gonna check out tomarrow should be a spectacular time. I hope is has what i need.
My mother is number one. She has to be right now. She is the only one that doesnt dissapoint me. But what do you expect. She is the only one that gives me 120% of her time. How could any body else do that for me.
Im a nice guy. I care to much some times. i trust with everything.
But i am so cold.
...too cold... it aint even right sometimes..
one shot with me, make a mistake, and you go in the trash with all the others.
....their are so many others..
thats to depressing to remember.
Im glad not many read this. Cause few know me. And im pretty darn specail.
ive acomplished alot in so little time. Im on my 3rd job in houston. in a peroid of 5 months
when lots of people have the hardest time. i have transportation.
THANKS TO GOD.
God is so good. he is my only father that i know. My moms husband died long ago,. 3 years old. my mom was on her own. Always got food on the table, even with a sister like mine. Getting involved in gangs. Ive seen as a child that you only seen in movies.
wish i was in church right now.
i could really use a hug right now.
well its night time. sleep time.