AHHHH LIFE
Soooo.... I guess I'm long overdue for an update. (Mandy please try not to pee your pants:)
First and foremost I'm MOVINNNGGG!!! I'm not happy about it but here goes:
I quit my job. I got sick of it. I had to call in for some.....personal.....reasons and my manager was basically a heinous beotch about it so I got mad and stupid and just up and quit. Without a thought about ummm...money. So now I'm broke, I can't afford my apartment anymore and I'm realizing even if I had kept my job, I'm only getting by. I have a lot of bills (school, medical, etc) to pay and the only way I'm gonna be able to get myself ahead is if I'm not paying rent and all that goes along with living on my own. Sooo.. I'm doing what I swore I'd never do and moving back in with my parents. It's the only way I can get ahead and go back to school. Normally this would send me into a psychotic breakdown but...I've let myself see things in terms of the future and I AM only 21 years old so its not like I'm OLD. So thats the scoop there.
Ummm....I've basically let most of my important friendships go to hell BECAUSE of all these things I've been going through. I know there's not an excuse but...its the WORST feeling. It's like, things are bad enough, then you realize you've pissed off your friends so who do you turn to? Although I'm not gonna lie. I DO feel like some things have gotten blown WAY out of proportion where some people are being ridiculous about SOME things but... I know ultimately I've screwed up and because I HATE confrontation and dealing with uncomfortable situations I let things go and go and just get worse. Some day I hope I learn that ignoring problems does not make them go away. One thing at a time here.......
What else? I've met new people and it's been crazy. I love new people. You get to learn A WHOLE PERSON from the ground up and THAT is so much fun. I don't want to leave everyone though. Even though my parents house is only like a half hour from here its still gonna be weird to go from spending EVERY day with people (aka Mindy and Jon) to only once in awhile. Bummmmer....
OH! AND LAST NIGHT WAS A BLAST!!! Mindy and I hung out with Ryan for the first time since he moved. It's been two looong Ryan-ess months. Needless to say it was nice to catch up...Sasquatch (sp) came out for a visit (HAHA!) and it was just nice. Except....now I'm hung over bad today. Not neat. I didn't even plan on drinking last night....it was a WEDNESDAY night for crying out loud but.... how often do I get to hang out with two of my favorite people like old times??? Apparently only once every two months...not neat. But now Ryan and I will practically be neighbors so thats cool. Life's a trade off I guess ;)
Alright thats about it. Hope everyone who still checks to see if I'm alive on here is well. Drop me a comment...or even better...a whole e-mail to reeeally let me know how you are. Later!
P.S....
I got my SUPER NINTENDO working!!! SuperMario, MarioKart, NBA JAM!!!! It's been heaven!
First and foremost I'm MOVINNNGGG!!! I'm not happy about it but here goes:
I quit my job. I got sick of it. I had to call in for some.....personal.....reasons and my manager was basically a heinous beotch about it so I got mad and stupid and just up and quit. Without a thought about ummm...money. So now I'm broke, I can't afford my apartment anymore and I'm realizing even if I had kept my job, I'm only getting by. I have a lot of bills (school, medical, etc) to pay and the only way I'm gonna be able to get myself ahead is if I'm not paying rent and all that goes along with living on my own. Sooo.. I'm doing what I swore I'd never do and moving back in with my parents. It's the only way I can get ahead and go back to school. Normally this would send me into a psychotic breakdown but...I've let myself see things in terms of the future and I AM only 21 years old so its not like I'm OLD. So thats the scoop there.
Ummm....I've basically let most of my important friendships go to hell BECAUSE of all these things I've been going through. I know there's not an excuse but...its the WORST feeling. It's like, things are bad enough, then you realize you've pissed off your friends so who do you turn to? Although I'm not gonna lie. I DO feel like some things have gotten blown WAY out of proportion where some people are being ridiculous about SOME things but... I know ultimately I've screwed up and because I HATE confrontation and dealing with uncomfortable situations I let things go and go and just get worse. Some day I hope I learn that ignoring problems does not make them go away. One thing at a time here.......
What else? I've met new people and it's been crazy. I love new people. You get to learn A WHOLE PERSON from the ground up and THAT is so much fun. I don't want to leave everyone though. Even though my parents house is only like a half hour from here its still gonna be weird to go from spending EVERY day with people (aka Mindy and Jon) to only once in awhile. Bummmmer....
OH! AND LAST NIGHT WAS A BLAST!!! Mindy and I hung out with Ryan for the first time since he moved. It's been two looong Ryan-ess months. Needless to say it was nice to catch up...Sasquatch (sp) came out for a visit (HAHA!) and it was just nice. Except....now I'm hung over bad today. Not neat. I didn't even plan on drinking last night....it was a WEDNESDAY night for crying out loud but.... how often do I get to hang out with two of my favorite people like old times??? Apparently only once every two months...not neat. But now Ryan and I will practically be neighbors so thats cool. Life's a trade off I guess ;)
Alright thats about it. Hope everyone who still checks to see if I'm alive on here is well. Drop me a comment...or even better...a whole e-mail to reeeally let me know how you are. Later!
P.S....
I got my SUPER NINTENDO working!!! SuperMario, MarioKart, NBA JAM!!!! It's been heaven!