excuse me while i GO PHSYCO.
You know what? i should just STOP thinking. it gets me in trouble. if i don't think, i don't have emotions, and then my emotions won't FUCK ME OVER.
God, I am so impossible sometimes.
I had to resort to dealing with someone who i did NOT want to deal with, risk some information getting out that should NOT have gotten out, in order to find something out for myself.
I'm glad I did it, but I hope this doesn't turn into a catastrophe...
But I now have a new found trust and love for taylor because he's starting to live up to what i've dreamed about.
But reality is so dangerous. Can't I just live in my dreams?
God, I am so impossible sometimes.
I had to resort to dealing with someone who i did NOT want to deal with, risk some information getting out that should NOT have gotten out, in order to find something out for myself.
I'm glad I did it, but I hope this doesn't turn into a catastrophe...
But I now have a new found trust and love for taylor because he's starting to live up to what i've dreamed about.
But reality is so dangerous. Can't I just live in my dreams?