I'm losing the battle against myself
I think I enjoy the thoughts rolling around in my head more than actually writing them down. As soon as you write, or type, then you are admiting to the world you are a bit off your rocker. Yes, I know you already knew that about me. I just like to entertain the thought of "normal" acutally exisiting. It has to exist on some level, or else so many people wouldn't avoid it as if it were the plague, or others want it so much.
That is probably one of the reason Post Secret is as popular as it is. We can admit to ourselves and others that we have faults that make us less normal. I think that is why I love Post Secret so much. I can connect with someone I don't even know, or will ever met, through an experience that we both shared in two different places at two different times. If you don't know about Post Secret, you should discover it. It changes lives.
I just went to a Post Secret lecture with Jessica and Kat. It was the most fun I have had in a long time. I miss them so much, and they make me miss a part of me that I feel is missing. I don't know what happen to it, or where it flew to. But it is gone. Maybe I lost it a long time ago and didn't realize it till recently that I lost it. Perhaps I thought I still had it all along, but then I went searching and realized it is gone. I know what is missing, but I'm too scared to admit it, because it kinda is like admiting failure. Well, not kinda, it IS. I don't want to be a failure. I want to be something. More than anything in the world. But I'm already becoming a failure. I hate that it is so much easier for me to fail, then to even TRY!
I need to get out of this town. I need the "me" to be the fullest "ME".
That is probably one of the reason Post Secret is as popular as it is. We can admit to ourselves and others that we have faults that make us less normal. I think that is why I love Post Secret so much. I can connect with someone I don't even know, or will ever met, through an experience that we both shared in two different places at two different times. If you don't know about Post Secret, you should discover it. It changes lives.
I just went to a Post Secret lecture with Jessica and Kat. It was the most fun I have had in a long time. I miss them so much, and they make me miss a part of me that I feel is missing. I don't know what happen to it, or where it flew to. But it is gone. Maybe I lost it a long time ago and didn't realize it till recently that I lost it. Perhaps I thought I still had it all along, but then I went searching and realized it is gone. I know what is missing, but I'm too scared to admit it, because it kinda is like admiting failure. Well, not kinda, it IS. I don't want to be a failure. I want to be something. More than anything in the world. But I'm already becoming a failure. I hate that it is so much easier for me to fail, then to even TRY!
I need to get out of this town. I need the "me" to be the fullest "ME".