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I keep having terrible lucid dreams. Onces of gigantic spiders, and their so real I can feel them. I always see them at 3:00 am, and when I turn on the lights, rip apart my bed, even move my bed frame, theres nothing there. One night, I actually saw over 1000 spiders, all over my walls, my ceiling, my body, hands, face and I could feel them crawling on me. I could feel their bulbous bodies and tiny pincers on their legs. Each of them over an inch and half big. I know their not real, but I HAVE to rip apart my bed before I can crawl back into it and sleep.
It's happened almost every night, all summer that I've been home.
On a seperate note, i've lost all of my Algonquin photo's. I have no idea where the disc is, and I really want to die because I took some amazing shots.
I hung out with Clare and Ariel yesterday, i think the first time all summer we've seen each other. It was grand, we went to bradford. I had to fill the gas tank for the first time yesterday and I needed both clare and ariel's help. I felt like stupid jessica simpson. It's just because I couldn't open the gas tank, or figure out what kind of fuel to choose. Plus weird men were looking at us.
Im considering making my Journal- Friends only. Just because I dont actually write about real things in here.
ugh why am I awake.
oh, and on a final note, I bought some pretty sweet camo panties. Clare, Ariel and I went on a shopping spree yesterday and found some pretty wicked underware.
ohhh and on a final final note,
I dub this summer a 9 out of 10 because it's just been the most relaxing and non hectic summer ever. Although I didn't go to Wonderland once this summer, and worked a lot of my summer i've just loved it. It's been great.
It was kind of weird, because every year since grade 9 clare and I always frequent wonderland, it was pretty much our lives and that completely changed. I think a lot of things have changed over this span of 2 months. I think im ready to embrace the change, embrace structure, and embrace challenge. I think for once im going to live in the present, and focus on now. It's the only way i'll grow as a person.
-that is all.
It's happened almost every night, all summer that I've been home.
On a seperate note, i've lost all of my Algonquin photo's. I have no idea where the disc is, and I really want to die because I took some amazing shots.
I hung out with Clare and Ariel yesterday, i think the first time all summer we've seen each other. It was grand, we went to bradford. I had to fill the gas tank for the first time yesterday and I needed both clare and ariel's help. I felt like stupid jessica simpson. It's just because I couldn't open the gas tank, or figure out what kind of fuel to choose. Plus weird men were looking at us.
Im considering making my Journal- Friends only. Just because I dont actually write about real things in here.
ugh why am I awake.
oh, and on a final note, I bought some pretty sweet camo panties. Clare, Ariel and I went on a shopping spree yesterday and found some pretty wicked underware.
ohhh and on a final final note,
I dub this summer a 9 out of 10 because it's just been the most relaxing and non hectic summer ever. Although I didn't go to Wonderland once this summer, and worked a lot of my summer i've just loved it. It's been great.
It was kind of weird, because every year since grade 9 clare and I always frequent wonderland, it was pretty much our lives and that completely changed. I think a lot of things have changed over this span of 2 months. I think im ready to embrace the change, embrace structure, and embrace challenge. I think for once im going to live in the present, and focus on now. It's the only way i'll grow as a person.
-that is all.