So many threads
In the last entry, I talked about staying versus going.
The thing about that discussion is, when we pull on one of the threads in that discussion, we pull on other threads.
One of the things about returning to the United States is my first choice of a place to stay would be my mother's house. Only my mother's house is really a rental that isn't quite set up for more than one person. It would be okay as a temporary thing, but there would, from the first day, be a clock ticking. Other than the logistics, this is another situation where I would once again be in orbit in a place that wasn't really mine. There is a long and complicated dynamic there.
But the thing is, in solving any of my issues, there is a lot more issues to look at. They just keep going! So, by default...I stay doing what I am doing.
The thing about that discussion is, when we pull on one of the threads in that discussion, we pull on other threads.
One of the things about returning to the United States is my first choice of a place to stay would be my mother's house. Only my mother's house is really a rental that isn't quite set up for more than one person. It would be okay as a temporary thing, but there would, from the first day, be a clock ticking. Other than the logistics, this is another situation where I would once again be in orbit in a place that wasn't really mine. There is a long and complicated dynamic there.
But the thing is, in solving any of my issues, there is a lot more issues to look at. They just keep going! So, by default...I stay doing what I am doing.