Happiness Shouldn't Be This Hard...
Nothing never seems to go right for long. Last night, I found someone that I could talk to, and we were in his truck talking for like 2 hours, we didn't realize it till afterwards, and now I'm being accused of sleeping with him. And now Amanda is mad at me. Amanda, if you actually read this, I'm really sorry, and there are reason why I did what I did but I don't want to talk about it on this. If you call me or I.M. me, I'll try to explain.
I'm gonna go back to Havenwyck after I start counseling. This is my decision. I need to get my shit together. It seems that I'm either extremely depressed or angry most of the time, or both. Sometimes I can't decide whether I want to cry or bash someone's face in. My thoughts are depressing and they sometimes scare me. I'm starting to think that maybe if I went away, people would be happier, that maybe the world would be a better place without me. I just seem to cause so many problems, and I've never had to work at happiness as much as I have to now, and I'm failing miserably at finding it. So I'm gonna go to Havenwyck for awhile as soon as I can, I just have to start counciling again before, and my mom said she would help me with getting in. So if I disappear for awhile, I'm sure you guys would understand. I'll let you guys know when I do end up going as soon as I know.
Until then,
Amanda Joan
I'm gonna go back to Havenwyck after I start counseling. This is my decision. I need to get my shit together. It seems that I'm either extremely depressed or angry most of the time, or both. Sometimes I can't decide whether I want to cry or bash someone's face in. My thoughts are depressing and they sometimes scare me. I'm starting to think that maybe if I went away, people would be happier, that maybe the world would be a better place without me. I just seem to cause so many problems, and I've never had to work at happiness as much as I have to now, and I'm failing miserably at finding it. So I'm gonna go to Havenwyck for awhile as soon as I can, I just have to start counciling again before, and my mom said she would help me with getting in. So if I disappear for awhile, I'm sure you guys would understand. I'll let you guys know when I do end up going as soon as I know.
Until then,
Amanda Joan