Holding A Hand Of Aces And Eights...
Just when everything was looking up, my world crashes down once again. I feel like such a drama queen. It would be so much easier if I had someone to hold me through this. I don't even want to share the burden with them, I just want to be held. I thought I found my holder, but he dropped me like a dog does shit.
How can I be played for the fool again? More importantly, why? He hurt me so bad. Why did he have to lie? What gets me the most is that he didn't even have to lie, I would have been fine with the truth. I really liked this one, he didn't seem to be like all the rest. I was afraid that I was even falling for him, I thought I knew him. I know nothing about him anymore. He broke my heart when he didn't have to. How could he do this to me? Did he ever even care about me??? Or was I just another toy of his to manipulate? The tears well up inside, trying not to spill, but can't help over flowing. How could I have been so stupid? How did I fall for an act again? I thought I was so careful, I thought I could trust him, something very hard for me to do. Will I ever be able to trust a guy again like I did Rey? Why is this affecting me so much? I should be pissed. He lied to me. Our whole relationship (or whatever you people want to call it) was pretty much based on a lie, when it didn't need to be. My friends were like, 'how do you know he's telling the truth?' 'What if he's just playing you?' I told them Rey would never do that, he's not like that. There wasn't even a hint of suspicion, I trusted him, and he shattered me. Want to hear the best part though? Of course you do! He's mad at me! What did I do? He lied, he broke my heart, he made me cry. He left me feeling like I'm holding a *hand of Aces and eights...
*A hand of Aces and eights in poker is called the Dead Man's Hand because that was the hand Buffalo Bill had in his hands when he was shot and killed. It's considered a omen of death.
How can I be played for the fool again? More importantly, why? He hurt me so bad. Why did he have to lie? What gets me the most is that he didn't even have to lie, I would have been fine with the truth. I really liked this one, he didn't seem to be like all the rest. I was afraid that I was even falling for him, I thought I knew him. I know nothing about him anymore. He broke my heart when he didn't have to. How could he do this to me? Did he ever even care about me??? Or was I just another toy of his to manipulate? The tears well up inside, trying not to spill, but can't help over flowing. How could I have been so stupid? How did I fall for an act again? I thought I was so careful, I thought I could trust him, something very hard for me to do. Will I ever be able to trust a guy again like I did Rey? Why is this affecting me so much? I should be pissed. He lied to me. Our whole relationship (or whatever you people want to call it) was pretty much based on a lie, when it didn't need to be. My friends were like, 'how do you know he's telling the truth?' 'What if he's just playing you?' I told them Rey would never do that, he's not like that. There wasn't even a hint of suspicion, I trusted him, and he shattered me. Want to hear the best part though? Of course you do! He's mad at me! What did I do? He lied, he broke my heart, he made me cry. He left me feeling like I'm holding a *hand of Aces and eights...
*A hand of Aces and eights in poker is called the Dead Man's Hand because that was the hand Buffalo Bill had in his hands when he was shot and killed. It's considered a omen of death.