Even Sadder
Well, at least we had a fun birthday dinner for Cody, Rich Lake is doing a lot better, and the worship night at Mines went well.
After Cody's birthday dinner (we went to the Keg), Cody woke up at 3am with extremely painful stomach cramps and decided the pain was way too much and that we needed to go to the hospital. So we headed out and after having to pull over a few times for him and getting suck behind a huge big rig blocking the road causing us to turn around, we got to the ER. By this time Cody was having a full blown panic attack and they got him on all the monitors, gave him drugs and pain killers and he started to calm down. He thought his Appendix was about to burst, but the doctor decided the pain was not in the right place and that it was probably just pain in the gastric region. We got to go home by 9am and I took the day off to keep an eye on him.
Friday night Warner came over to hang out with Cody and I had practice for the worship night here. It was really a lot of fun, but also always a bit difficult to figure out how we're going to do songs, what key, who does what... so still a bit stressful. Jo got in the next day and it was a lot of fun.
We woke up Sunday morning to news that there was a shooting at the YWAM facility just two miles away from here. My dad called to tell me that the Gazleys are okay. They also confirmed that another staff member I know from LMCC wasn't involved either. We didn't even have our front door locked that night... Then during the football game, breaking news flash announces another shooting at New Life Church where Jo used to go when she lived in CO Springs. I gave her a call to let her know. She has a close friend who is close to the family that lost two teenage daughters. Watching the footage gave me flashbacks to Columbine..
Later that night I realize I really need to get the songs picked out for the Journey, but all I can think about is how heavy my heart is. I decide to do "You are Still Holy" and "Pour out my Heart". I turn the next page and "Praise You In This Storm" is the next song in my book. I play it and finally all the tears poor out. I just feel like I've been living a storm for two years and I am so very tired. I really need a break. I need relief, I need help. My heart just can't handle all of this.
"Praise You In This Storm"
I was sure by now, You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away, Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
I remember when I stumbled in the wind You heard my cry, You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone, How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls, I barely hear Your whisper through the rain: "I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands for You are who You are
No matter where I am and every tear I've cried, you hold in Your hand
You never left my side, And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
After Cody's birthday dinner (we went to the Keg), Cody woke up at 3am with extremely painful stomach cramps and decided the pain was way too much and that we needed to go to the hospital. So we headed out and after having to pull over a few times for him and getting suck behind a huge big rig blocking the road causing us to turn around, we got to the ER. By this time Cody was having a full blown panic attack and they got him on all the monitors, gave him drugs and pain killers and he started to calm down. He thought his Appendix was about to burst, but the doctor decided the pain was not in the right place and that it was probably just pain in the gastric region. We got to go home by 9am and I took the day off to keep an eye on him.
Friday night Warner came over to hang out with Cody and I had practice for the worship night here. It was really a lot of fun, but also always a bit difficult to figure out how we're going to do songs, what key, who does what... so still a bit stressful. Jo got in the next day and it was a lot of fun.
We woke up Sunday morning to news that there was a shooting at the YWAM facility just two miles away from here. My dad called to tell me that the Gazleys are okay. They also confirmed that another staff member I know from LMCC wasn't involved either. We didn't even have our front door locked that night... Then during the football game, breaking news flash announces another shooting at New Life Church where Jo used to go when she lived in CO Springs. I gave her a call to let her know. She has a close friend who is close to the family that lost two teenage daughters. Watching the footage gave me flashbacks to Columbine..
Later that night I realize I really need to get the songs picked out for the Journey, but all I can think about is how heavy my heart is. I decide to do "You are Still Holy" and "Pour out my Heart". I turn the next page and "Praise You In This Storm" is the next song in my book. I play it and finally all the tears poor out. I just feel like I've been living a storm for two years and I am so very tired. I really need a break. I need relief, I need help. My heart just can't handle all of this.
"Praise You In This Storm"
I was sure by now, You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away, Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
I remember when I stumbled in the wind You heard my cry, You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone, How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls, I barely hear Your whisper through the rain: "I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands for You are who You are
No matter where I am and every tear I've cried, you hold in Your hand
You never left my side, And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm