Progress...
Tonight I went out and was myself in a larger group for the first time in a very long time. I met a good crew of people. Ones I’d want to hang out with again. I went at my own pace. There was no one there who I felt was overshadowing me. No one I had to compete with to get attention. I participated in conversations and was quite witty. It was all very balanced feeling. Easy.
Like I could feel the magic. I've been feeling glowie-magic a lot more lately.
I was even asked to go out after the barbeque, out to a club. But I was tired and taking someone home. And these are people I will see again, and this time know them. Not like exchange numbers and never call ... but like I know it’ll work out and they could be my crew so I’ll just let it go its NATURAL course.
I finally feel free to do that. To let things go at their natural pace.
Like I could feel the magic. I've been feeling glowie-magic a lot more lately.
I was even asked to go out after the barbeque, out to a club. But I was tired and taking someone home. And these are people I will see again, and this time know them. Not like exchange numbers and never call ... but like I know it’ll work out and they could be my crew so I’ll just let it go its NATURAL course.
I finally feel free to do that. To let things go at their natural pace.