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My paid account will be running out soon and I don't feel like renewing it and so all of my pictures that I used to host on photobucket and then transferred to livejournal's hosting service will be deleted and I really don't feel like going back and replacing all of them and so I'm not going to and I was thinking that maybe I should just say fuck it to this lj and make a new one but then I thought, I don't want to do that either, really and so I've decided not to. ALSO, I've been thinking a lot lately about photography and what it may mean to me and that sounds a bit vague and maybe annoyingly obvious but really, I don't know if I want to fake reality because what the fuck is so great about reality and so maybe I'm just going to photograph my own perception of reality and then a though occured to me; maybe that was the whole point the entire time. Which of course it was but I couldn't really see it because I was so caught up in the aesthetics alone that I neglected everything else because I wanted to be good and so I skipped a lot of things and fuck, I really need to pee.