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I've felt a bit of anxiety grabbing at me lately. I tend to realize what im feeling so much sooner and more intensely then ever before. Is this growing up? I wonder if people ever grow down.. ha. Makes me wonder where this awareness has been before now.
When i was a little kid i was constantly in trouble, i acted on the model i had in my environment. I acted on the impulsive emotions i had without thinking as much as 3 seconds into the future. Growing " up " have i found a sense of balance on the tight rope of my self concept?
presently:
i absorb myself into everything i do, physically, emotionally and spiritually.
i have the tools to do things like balance myself on the fly by changing my inner state.
- one deep breath in, slowly exhale. -- Think back to a time when i felt the way i was as if i was totally happy and balanced. open my breath back, focus on the awareness. There i am again, in that state. Even if only for a second, that one single action changes everything. is this growing down?
growing up, yeah he's got it together, maybe having it all together is just the pre disposition for falling apart.
so this middle, maybe the middle is growing down, down to the state of being ok with the now. feeling like ok, i have options, choices, possibilities and in this state im truely aware, i have.. abundance.
i dont know
but its ok... to not know.. sometimes.
When i was a little kid i was constantly in trouble, i acted on the model i had in my environment. I acted on the impulsive emotions i had without thinking as much as 3 seconds into the future. Growing " up " have i found a sense of balance on the tight rope of my self concept?
presently:
i absorb myself into everything i do, physically, emotionally and spiritually.
i have the tools to do things like balance myself on the fly by changing my inner state.
- one deep breath in, slowly exhale. -- Think back to a time when i felt the way i was as if i was totally happy and balanced. open my breath back, focus on the awareness. There i am again, in that state. Even if only for a second, that one single action changes everything. is this growing down?
growing up, yeah he's got it together, maybe having it all together is just the pre disposition for falling apart.
so this middle, maybe the middle is growing down, down to the state of being ok with the now. feeling like ok, i have options, choices, possibilities and in this state im truely aware, i have.. abundance.
i dont know
but its ok... to not know.. sometimes.