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sometimes i feel like i'm just so sick of trying so damned hard. it's not that i don't love what i do, because i definitely do, but it's v. draining and time-consuming. and when something good happens, it just seems like something is rapidly on its heels to rain on my parade. and i just feel like i want to give up and just be a trophy wife or something where i can just smile and look pretty and not have people have such high expectations. don't you know? i'm scared to death of failing you and i'm pretty positive i've already failed some of you. our lack of current friendship should say something to that effect at least...