#74 .....
Let's not be swayed by any other person anymore. The truth of the matter stays as it is, hurts but that's also the only thing people cannot deny.
All this while, I've been trying to be the perfect lover, the one who can pamper you with love, who can bring you happiness and also to make you smile everyday. There might be things I cannot accept, quarrels are also inevitable, but it always takes 2 hands to clap. We need a lot of understanding and compromising to keep the relationship going.
You've done your best too. Thank you for being you and after this whole ordeal, I've discovered a lot of things I should have known and realized, but did not. My fault for being insensitive towards your surroundings, but let's not forget it's still up to you to share.
So finally, you threw to me words that are very much unpleasant to the ears and heart.
I heard that out of 10 relationships, 8 involves a 3rd party be it at the beginning of the relationship, at the later part, or ends the relationship once and for all. Whatever it is, very obviously the 3rd party never wins unless one party in the relationship wavers.
You did not pass through the test.
Chances were given assurance was doubled time was wasted but your heart still goes out to 2. Understanding me, you know I can never accept the sharing of love.
I thought I could give it another try but realized I cannot accept this ridiculous thing anymore! I gave it so much thought and totally cannot understand why should the victim repeatedly gets the shit and gotta wait for the wrong party to give the VICTIM a chance to be taken in again and again when the victim benefitted nothing but hurt.
Think about who is being treated like a toy here. Me? Or you?
Is that the way it should be? What a shame.
It's the 21st century now and people should no longer be so blinded by love, especially this kind of bruised love because deep inside our hearts we know that even if we get back together, this whole trauma has already scarred me deep, broken hearts can no longer be pieced back and the love will no longer be the same again.
So why waste time when going on only yields more hurt?
Go on. Go get who you think can give you more care, protection and love, and not forgetting your long lost freedom.
I have chosen not to walk with you this same path anymore, for I know that the appreciation will no longer be solely on me. Decision has been made and it's okay that you hate me and not wanting to take me back. It's okay girl, I do not want you to want me back as well. I guess this is one of the best decisions I've made in my life thus far and I am finally feeling less suffocated. I know you do, too. Your way of spiting me finally didn't succeed and I hope you really will feel happy. Unlike you, I will not hate you but I know I will never forget all that you've given me.
I dont need anything back. But I'll return you yours if you want.
The more you say, the more I'm feeling you do not understand how I feel. I always thought you understand me, but I guess I'm wrong.
Take good care. Goodbye.
All this while, I've been trying to be the perfect lover, the one who can pamper you with love, who can bring you happiness and also to make you smile everyday. There might be things I cannot accept, quarrels are also inevitable, but it always takes 2 hands to clap. We need a lot of understanding and compromising to keep the relationship going.
You've done your best too. Thank you for being you and after this whole ordeal, I've discovered a lot of things I should have known and realized, but did not. My fault for being insensitive towards your surroundings, but let's not forget it's still up to you to share.
So finally, you threw to me words that are very much unpleasant to the ears and heart.
I heard that out of 10 relationships, 8 involves a 3rd party be it at the beginning of the relationship, at the later part, or ends the relationship once and for all. Whatever it is, very obviously the 3rd party never wins unless one party in the relationship wavers.
You did not pass through the test.
Chances were given assurance was doubled time was wasted but your heart still goes out to 2. Understanding me, you know I can never accept the sharing of love.
I thought I could give it another try but realized I cannot accept this ridiculous thing anymore! I gave it so much thought and totally cannot understand why should the victim repeatedly gets the shit and gotta wait for the wrong party to give the VICTIM a chance to be taken in again and again when the victim benefitted nothing but hurt.
Think about who is being treated like a toy here. Me? Or you?
Is that the way it should be? What a shame.
It's the 21st century now and people should no longer be so blinded by love, especially this kind of bruised love because deep inside our hearts we know that even if we get back together, this whole trauma has already scarred me deep, broken hearts can no longer be pieced back and the love will no longer be the same again.
So why waste time when going on only yields more hurt?
Go on. Go get who you think can give you more care, protection and love, and not forgetting your long lost freedom.
I have chosen not to walk with you this same path anymore, for I know that the appreciation will no longer be solely on me. Decision has been made and it's okay that you hate me and not wanting to take me back. It's okay girl, I do not want you to want me back as well. I guess this is one of the best decisions I've made in my life thus far and I am finally feeling less suffocated. I know you do, too. Your way of spiting me finally didn't succeed and I hope you really will feel happy. Unlike you, I will not hate you but I know I will never forget all that you've given me.
I dont need anything back. But I'll return you yours if you want.
The more you say, the more I'm feeling you do not understand how I feel. I always thought you understand me, but I guess I'm wrong.
Take good care. Goodbye.