Writing While My Face-Mask Sits
I haven't updated in a long time. Dad still locks up the computer and this site is blocked from that hell hole school I attend. Umm.. Easter was good. I got a puppy and I named her WInnie. She is an aussie like cosmo. She is beautiful. Joe asked me to prom and I said yes even though I promised my self I wouldn't go. The concept is still stupid to me, but it will be fun, I've never done anything like that before. I havn't gotten my dress yet. I am getting my hair and nails done for it though. I have a color apt. on sunday, I can't decide if I should got dark redish or golden honey color. I am still on my diet. Today is acually a month and I have lost a little over 20 lbs. I don't think you can tell though. I want to lose 15 more lbs. by graduation and all my weight by the time I leave for school in August. I can't go to college hating myself, that is what's motavating me so much. I spent all of high school unhappy and self consouis and I am not going to do that in college. Plus I am worried about my health. It just scares me that the leading cause for death in women is heart deises. I am so frusterated that I can't spell. We are doing literary analysis papers in English and I think I would be a great writer if I was so freaking worried about my spelling. I can never get my thoughs orginaized though. THats what bothers me about English there is such a larger grey area. Well anyways, May is going to be a really busy month for me. I have hair and nail apointments, I also need to get my hair cut, the second weekend I took of work for Emilys graduation and then the week after that is prom. We are going to the Cheesecake factory for dinner and than to the dance and Lindsey rented a hotel room after that. We are having a limo which will be cool cause I;ve never been in one. The the next week after prom I have finals then that Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I am in San Diego with some friends, we already booked our hotel, it is right on mission beach. That should be fun. Then that monday is the senior breakfest and graduation practice. That tuesday is graduation. That saturday is our big faimly graduation pary for me patrick emily and hannah. The the next tuesday and thursday I am in flagstaff regisering for classes. I have a busy month ahead of me. I also need to find a second job because I am going to work mornings at the bank and hopfully at night I can be a hostess. I want to save $5000 this summer, I already have $800 in my desert schools account so I figure by the end of the school year I'll have $1200 in there and soon after I'll reach $2000 to put a down payment on my car. I am going to get a jetta. I already talked to my parents about it and they are willing to co-sign with me for it. What else is going on? Oh yeah, brittany and Jesse are officially over and him and Robert got into a fist fight. I hate high school drama. Whatever. I do NOT want RObert to go to San Diego with us. I swear I won't go. I have gone to the gym everynight. TOnight I saw the boy I have a crush on. It was great. I better go. I need to study Econ. Goodnight!